1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:18,768 --> 00:00:21,354 -(CARS HORN HONKING) -(INDISTINCT CHATTER) 4 00:00:21,438 --> 00:00:24,607 ♪ ("DON'T DO SADNESS" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 5 00:00:28,987 --> 00:00:30,655 -FAN: Thank you, darling. -LEA MICHELE: Of course, 6 00:00:30,739 --> 00:00:31,740 there you go. 7 00:00:31,823 --> 00:00:33,199 -FAN: Thank you. -LEA: We are reuniting 8 00:00:33,283 --> 00:00:35,410 the cast of Spring Awakening 9 00:00:35,493 --> 00:00:38,246 for the first time in 15 years 10 00:00:38,329 --> 00:00:40,290 for a one-night benefit concert, 11 00:00:40,373 --> 00:00:42,709 benefitting the incredible Actors' Fund. 12 00:00:42,792 --> 00:00:44,002 JONATHAN GROFF: Getting the chance 13 00:00:44,085 --> 00:00:45,128 to come back together 14 00:00:45,211 --> 00:00:47,672 after 15 years and do this concert, 15 00:00:47,756 --> 00:00:48,840 and touch again 16 00:00:48,923 --> 00:00:50,925 the material that changed our lives, 17 00:00:51,009 --> 00:00:53,803 -is gonna be insane. -(INDISTINCT CHATTER) 18 00:00:53,887 --> 00:00:55,638 LAUREN PRITCHARD: I don't know that I ever thought 19 00:00:55,722 --> 00:00:57,307 we would ever do this again. 20 00:00:57,390 --> 00:00:59,309 There was never fuckin' anything like this 21 00:00:59,392 --> 00:01:01,686 that's ever happened on a Broadway stage. 22 00:01:01,770 --> 00:01:02,771 LEA: Even now, 23 00:01:02,854 --> 00:01:04,522 trying to explain the show to my husband. 24 00:01:04,606 --> 00:01:07,192 So, there are these kids in the 1800s. 25 00:01:07,275 --> 00:01:08,568 But we pull out microphones, 26 00:01:08,651 --> 00:01:10,195 and then we sing like rock songs? 27 00:01:10,278 --> 00:01:12,447 -♪ (VOCALIZING) ♪ -JONATHAN: The show is so hard to describe. 28 00:01:12,530 --> 00:01:15,617 1891 Germany, rock music, there's children in it. 29 00:01:15,700 --> 00:01:17,076 They're having sex on stage. (CHUCKLES) 30 00:01:17,160 --> 00:01:18,453 LEA: He's like, "So, is it like Rent?" 31 00:01:18,536 --> 00:01:20,497 I'm like, it's not like Rent. (CHUCKLES) 32 00:01:20,580 --> 00:01:22,332 This character is jerking this one off, 33 00:01:22,415 --> 00:01:25,460 this one's abused, these two have a gay scene, 34 00:01:25,543 --> 00:01:30,590 abortion, the sex, the suicide. And we were all so young. 35 00:01:30,673 --> 00:01:31,883 STEVEN SATER: I could never imagine 36 00:01:31,966 --> 00:01:34,052 that it would be on Broadway. But it touched a nerve. 37 00:01:34,135 --> 00:01:36,429 -(AUDIENCE APPLAUDING) -JONATHAN: It was a hit. We weren't just doing 38 00:01:36,513 --> 00:01:38,848 a show anymore, we were doing the show. 39 00:01:38,932 --> 00:01:41,267 There were kids sleeping on the streets to come 40 00:01:41,351 --> 00:01:44,938 to this show and feel seen. Like, they're not alone. 41 00:01:45,021 --> 00:01:48,233 And this thing that they did 15 years ago still means 42 00:01:48,316 --> 00:01:49,859 so much to people. 43 00:01:49,943 --> 00:01:51,069 LEA: We became of those 44 00:01:51,152 --> 00:01:53,988 shows where everyone really blew up. 45 00:01:54,072 --> 00:01:56,783 We got movies and television shows. 46 00:01:56,866 --> 00:01:58,743 LILLI COOPER: I've been in four Broadway shows 47 00:01:58,827 --> 00:02:00,119 and I got nominated for a Tony Award, 48 00:02:00,203 --> 00:02:01,746 and it started with Spring Awakening. 49 00:02:01,830 --> 00:02:03,373 -(AUDIENCE CHEERING) -My next guest you know 50 00:02:03,456 --> 00:02:06,459 from Mindhunter, Frozen and Hamilton. 51 00:02:06,543 --> 00:02:09,379 He's now in The Matrix Resurrections. 52 00:02:09,462 --> 00:02:10,505 LEA: Fifteen years later, 53 00:02:10,588 --> 00:02:12,215 we're doing this reunion concert. 54 00:02:12,298 --> 00:02:15,510 "And now we get to experience this show again. I'm excited 55 00:02:15,593 --> 00:02:18,388 -and a little scared. Woo-hoo." -(ALL CHUCKLE) 56 00:02:18,471 --> 00:02:19,973 LEA: And everyone keeps saying, 57 00:02:20,056 --> 00:02:22,016 "Oh, it's just gonna come right back, it's just gonna come right back." 58 00:02:22,100 --> 00:02:24,477 And then we got to the theater and I was like, 59 00:02:24,561 --> 00:02:26,354 -"Oh, my God, am I ready?" -Whoo! 60 00:02:26,437 --> 00:02:27,647 STAGE CREW: Ladies and gentlemen, 61 00:02:27,730 --> 00:02:28,898 this is your places call, 62 00:02:28,982 --> 00:02:32,026 -places for the top of the show. -(AUDIENCE CHEERING) 63 00:02:32,110 --> 00:02:33,653 ♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 64 00:02:35,405 --> 00:02:36,656 LILLI: We were pinching ourselves. 65 00:02:36,739 --> 00:02:39,117 -We're doing it again. -(AUDIENCE CHEERING) 66 00:02:40,285 --> 00:02:41,452 LILLI: The second we all walked out, 67 00:02:41,536 --> 00:02:43,621 it felt like we were The Beatles. 68 00:02:43,705 --> 00:02:46,207 (CHEERING AND APPLAUSE CONTINUES) 69 00:02:53,173 --> 00:02:55,508 JONATHAN: The plan was we walk in and sit down, 70 00:02:55,592 --> 00:02:59,721 but we were so connected to each other that we knew 71 00:02:59,804 --> 00:03:06,644 to stand there and enjoy this wave of enthusiasm. 72 00:03:06,728 --> 00:03:11,357 And everyone is like, "Holy fucking shit." 73 00:03:11,441 --> 00:03:14,068 Like, "This is happening right now?" 74 00:03:14,152 --> 00:03:19,991 (AUDIENCE CHEERING) 75 00:03:49,354 --> 00:03:53,900 (JONATHAN BLOWING RASPBERRIES) 76 00:03:55,026 --> 00:03:57,195 (CARS HONKING) 77 00:03:57,862 --> 00:04:02,367 (BLOWS RASPBERRIES) 78 00:04:02,450 --> 00:04:05,495 This picture... (CHUCKLES) 79 00:04:05,578 --> 00:04:06,621 ...I texted to everyone 80 00:04:06,704 --> 00:04:09,374 'cause this really sums up our experience. 81 00:04:10,249 --> 00:04:12,168 That was happening. 82 00:04:12,251 --> 00:04:14,671 The whole group of us, the cast, the band 83 00:04:14,754 --> 00:04:17,423 haven't been in a room together for 15 years. 84 00:04:17,507 --> 00:04:19,133 Today is our day one, we're gonna do, 85 00:04:19,217 --> 00:04:21,177 like, music rehearsal. 86 00:04:21,260 --> 00:04:24,138 I haven't, like, rehearsed anything yet. 87 00:04:26,099 --> 00:04:28,977 ♪ (VOCALIZES) ♪ 88 00:04:29,060 --> 00:04:31,479 LEA: I haven't performed in such a long time, 89 00:04:31,562 --> 00:04:33,523 or sang or acted in forever, 90 00:04:33,606 --> 00:04:36,567 and your vocal cords, they're a muscle. 91 00:04:36,651 --> 00:04:39,821 So you want to stretch out your muscle and warm it up 92 00:04:39,904 --> 00:04:42,198 before you just make it go, 93 00:04:42,281 --> 00:04:44,283 you know, a thousand miles per hour. 94 00:04:44,367 --> 00:04:49,831 ♪ (VOCALIZES) ♪ 95 00:04:51,124 --> 00:04:54,544 ♪ (VOCALIZES) ♪ 96 00:04:54,627 --> 00:04:57,922 Is it there? It's there. Is it there? Ah! 97 00:04:58,006 --> 00:05:01,342 The hardest thing I think in doing it is gonna be... 98 00:05:01,426 --> 00:05:03,511 (INHALES, BLOWS RASPBERRIES) 99 00:05:03,594 --> 00:05:05,388 ...not crying while singing. 100 00:05:05,471 --> 00:05:07,056 ♪ ("ALL THAT'S KNOWN" PLAYING ON PHONE) ♪ 101 00:05:07,140 --> 00:05:08,224 -♪ On I go ♪ -(EXHALES) 102 00:05:08,307 --> 00:05:10,184 (SINGING ALONG) ♪ To wonder and to learning ♪ 103 00:05:10,268 --> 00:05:12,228 Fuck. (INHALES, BLOWS RASPBERRIES) 104 00:05:12,311 --> 00:05:15,064 LEA: Okay. On to the next thing. 105 00:05:15,148 --> 00:05:17,191 (EXHALES) Thank you. 106 00:05:17,275 --> 00:05:20,028 I don't normally do this with my bike helmet, guys. 107 00:05:20,111 --> 00:05:21,571 (CHUCKLES) 108 00:05:21,654 --> 00:05:24,198 It's going to be a tearful, probably like six days, 109 00:05:24,282 --> 00:05:26,576 and then we're gonna do the show. 110 00:05:28,244 --> 00:05:29,871 LEA: Thank you so much. 111 00:05:31,164 --> 00:05:33,082 -LEA: Hey. -JONATHAN: Oh, hi. 112 00:05:33,166 --> 00:05:34,709 LEA: They're gonna think we planned it. 113 00:05:34,792 --> 00:05:37,003 (BOTH CHUCKLE) 114 00:05:37,962 --> 00:05:39,213 JONATHAN: Oh, my God. 115 00:05:40,882 --> 00:05:42,717 We've met, you may not remember me. 116 00:05:42,800 --> 00:05:44,469 It was like 15 years ago. 117 00:05:44,552 --> 00:05:49,182 We all have this primal thread going through all of us. 118 00:05:49,265 --> 00:05:50,183 (CHUCKLES) 119 00:05:50,266 --> 00:05:52,143 LEA: I just want to be in this world 120 00:05:52,226 --> 00:05:53,311 with these people 121 00:05:53,394 --> 00:05:56,939 who have always made me feel so safe. 122 00:05:57,023 --> 00:05:58,566 -Whoo! -(INDISTINCT CHATTER) 123 00:05:58,649 --> 00:06:00,276 JOHN GALLAGHER JR.: It's just an immense gift 124 00:06:00,359 --> 00:06:02,695 to get a chance to revisit the piece, 125 00:06:02,779 --> 00:06:04,155 to revisit my friends and family 126 00:06:04,238 --> 00:06:07,283 'cause it was such a community that we created. 127 00:06:07,366 --> 00:06:08,826 -STEVEN: Okay. -LEA: Oh, my God. 128 00:06:08,910 --> 00:06:10,912 JONATHAN: The cast of Spring Awakening is on a text chain. 129 00:06:10,995 --> 00:06:14,457 And this year, Lauren wrote me 130 00:06:14,540 --> 00:06:17,543 and said, "Jonathan, I had a dream 131 00:06:17,627 --> 00:06:19,879 that we were all together doing this show. 132 00:06:19,962 --> 00:06:22,256 And I think we should do an anniversary concert." 133 00:06:22,340 --> 00:06:24,300 LAUREN: And I woke up the next morning and I was like, 134 00:06:24,383 --> 00:06:28,054 "We have to do this. I want to do this one more time." 135 00:06:28,137 --> 00:06:30,306 JONATHAN: It was COVID, so the schedules were open. 136 00:06:30,389 --> 00:06:33,017 We decided we're gonna do a one-night benefit concert 137 00:06:33,101 --> 00:06:36,062 for The Actor's Fund. We asked everyone in the cast, 138 00:06:36,145 --> 00:06:38,397 -they immediately said yes. -(INDISTINCT CHATTER) 139 00:06:39,816 --> 00:06:43,986 We did it! We did it! We did it! (CHUCKLES) We did it! 140 00:06:44,070 --> 00:06:46,280 It's kind of insane and miraculous. 141 00:06:46,364 --> 00:06:48,533 ALL: Kim! Kim! Kim! Kim! Kim! 142 00:06:48,616 --> 00:06:49,742 Whoo! 143 00:06:49,826 --> 00:06:53,454 -We've got work to do! -ALL: Yeah! 144 00:06:53,538 --> 00:06:54,872 JOHN: I'm really nervous. 145 00:06:54,956 --> 00:06:57,458 I haven't sung these songs in, you know, over a decade. 146 00:06:57,542 --> 00:06:59,669 How are they going to feel? How is it gonna fit? 147 00:06:59,752 --> 00:07:01,712 Is it-- Can I still hit the high notes? 148 00:07:01,796 --> 00:07:04,382 JOHN: 149 00:07:04,465 --> 00:07:05,675 (ALL LAUGH) 150 00:07:05,758 --> 00:07:07,635 I don't have to do-- I don't have to do anything. 151 00:07:07,718 --> 00:07:09,345 LEA: We have three rehearsal days, 152 00:07:09,428 --> 00:07:12,140 and then we're gonna perform it onstage. 153 00:07:12,223 --> 00:07:13,599 So, I'm scared. 154 00:07:13,683 --> 00:07:16,018 I told Jonathan that I hadn't been 155 00:07:16,102 --> 00:07:19,814 that nervous or anxious since the day my son was born. 156 00:07:19,897 --> 00:07:23,860 ♪ (GUITAR PLAYING "MAMA WHO BORE ME" BY DUNCAN SHEIK) ♪ 157 00:07:23,943 --> 00:07:26,279 LEA: It was a tsunami of emotions. 158 00:07:27,405 --> 00:07:30,741 ♪ Mama who bore me ♪ 159 00:07:30,825 --> 00:07:37,832 ♪ Mama who gave me No way to handle things ♪ 160 00:07:37,915 --> 00:07:41,711 ♪ Who made me so sad ♪ 161 00:07:41,794 --> 00:07:45,214 ♪ Mama the weeping ♪ 162 00:07:45,298 --> 00:07:48,509 ♪ Mama the angels... ♪ 163 00:07:48,593 --> 00:07:49,886 JONATHAN: Watching her sing that song, 164 00:07:49,969 --> 00:07:53,764 I was like, "Oh, my God." I saw this 19-year-old girl, 165 00:07:53,848 --> 00:07:56,058 memory. And I just lost my mind. 166 00:07:56,142 --> 00:07:59,395 ♪ Some pray that one day ♪ 167 00:07:59,478 --> 00:08:03,858 ♪ Christ will come a-callin' ♪ 168 00:08:03,941 --> 00:08:07,403 ♪ And they light a candle ♪ 169 00:08:07,486 --> 00:08:12,200 ♪ And hope that it glows ♪ 170 00:08:12,283 --> 00:08:15,661 ♪ And some Just lie there crying ♪ 171 00:08:15,745 --> 00:08:19,582 ♪ For him to come And find them ♪ 172 00:08:19,665 --> 00:08:23,211 ♪ But when he comes They don't know ♪ 173 00:08:23,294 --> 00:08:30,176 ♪ How to go ♪ 174 00:08:31,177 --> 00:08:34,722 ♪ Mama who bore me ♪ 175 00:08:34,805 --> 00:08:41,896 ♪ Mama who gave me No way to handle things ♪ 176 00:08:41,979 --> 00:08:45,483 ♪ Who made me so bad ♪ 177 00:08:45,566 --> 00:08:49,195 ♪ Mama the weeping ♪ 178 00:08:49,278 --> 00:08:53,324 ♪ Mama the angels ♪ 179 00:08:53,407 --> 00:08:57,787 ♪ No sleep in heaven ♪ 180 00:08:57,870 --> 00:09:04,126 ♪ Or Bethlehem ♪ 181 00:09:04,210 --> 00:09:06,212 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 182 00:09:06,295 --> 00:09:13,135 (ALL CHEER, APPLAUD) 183 00:09:13,219 --> 00:09:14,595 JONATHAN: She has one of those voices 184 00:09:14,679 --> 00:09:16,347 that just, like, slays me. 185 00:09:16,430 --> 00:09:19,183 In 2006, she would sing that song 186 00:09:19,267 --> 00:09:22,353 and always sound perfect. Like, fuck her. 187 00:09:23,145 --> 00:09:25,189 She's one of my dearest friends. 188 00:09:25,273 --> 00:09:28,776 We had this experience in Spring Awakening 189 00:09:28,859 --> 00:09:30,653 that changed our lives. 190 00:09:30,736 --> 00:09:33,322 ♪ Mama who bore me ♪ 191 00:09:33,406 --> 00:09:35,825 ♪ Mama who gave me ♪ 192 00:09:35,908 --> 00:09:38,953 ♪ Mama the angels ♪ 193 00:09:39,036 --> 00:09:41,455 ♪ Who made me so sad ♪ 194 00:09:41,539 --> 00:09:43,874 -♪ Mama who bore me ♪ -♪ Mama who bore me ♪ 195 00:09:43,958 --> 00:09:46,669 -♪ Mama who gave me... ♪ -♪ Mama who gave me... ♪ 196 00:09:46,752 --> 00:09:48,004 STEVEN: This book, 197 00:09:48,087 --> 00:09:50,715 this is Frank Wedekind's Fruhlings Erwachen. 198 00:09:50,798 --> 00:09:53,009 This is the original version of Spring Awakening 199 00:09:53,092 --> 00:09:55,011 that I bought in a German bookstore... 200 00:09:55,094 --> 00:09:57,013 (INHALES) ...in 1999. 201 00:09:57,096 --> 00:09:59,765 I'm the kind of guy who reads random old plays. (LAUGHS) 202 00:09:59,849 --> 00:10:03,936 It's this 19th century story about the deafness of adults 203 00:10:04,020 --> 00:10:06,397 to what's going on in the hearts of the young children. 204 00:10:06,480 --> 00:10:09,734 That longing and desire and frustration of young people. 205 00:10:09,817 --> 00:10:11,110 It's as if the entire world 206 00:10:11,193 --> 00:10:13,946 were mesmerized by penis and vagina. 207 00:10:14,030 --> 00:10:16,240 The 19th century characters, they're Lutheran. 208 00:10:16,324 --> 00:10:17,908 They're growing up in a Lutheran culture 209 00:10:17,992 --> 00:10:20,286 when history and science are under attack. 210 00:10:20,369 --> 00:10:22,788 We are hardly here today to conjecture. 211 00:10:22,872 --> 00:10:25,583 These kids are all oppressed by their parents, 212 00:10:25,666 --> 00:10:26,667 clergy, and teachers. 213 00:10:26,751 --> 00:10:30,463 To God, to our parents, to our teachers. 214 00:10:30,546 --> 00:10:33,591 We can never render sufficient gratitude. 215 00:10:33,674 --> 00:10:36,761 STEVEN: Our main character Melchior is on a hero's journey. 216 00:10:36,844 --> 00:10:39,555 Questioning everything, trying to break free. 217 00:10:39,639 --> 00:10:41,766 Are you then suggesting there is no further room 218 00:10:41,849 --> 00:10:44,101 for critical thought or interpretation? 219 00:10:44,185 --> 00:10:46,187 Why indeed, then do we have... (GASPS) 220 00:10:46,270 --> 00:10:47,897 STEVEN: He falls in love with Wendla, 221 00:10:47,980 --> 00:10:51,650 who aches with desire, but knows nothing about sex. 222 00:10:51,734 --> 00:10:53,527 I'm ashamed to even ask. 223 00:10:53,611 --> 00:10:55,905 But then who can I ask but you? (INHALES) 224 00:10:55,988 --> 00:10:58,783 Wendla, child! You cannot imagine that I could-- 225 00:10:58,866 --> 00:11:01,994 You can't imagine that I still believe in the stork. 226 00:11:02,078 --> 00:11:03,996 STEVEN: Moritz, Melchior's best friend, 227 00:11:04,080 --> 00:11:06,832 is an anxious teen flailing in school 228 00:11:06,916 --> 00:11:09,418 because he's agonized by the thought of puberty. 229 00:11:09,502 --> 00:11:10,753 He's really struggling with it. 230 00:11:10,836 --> 00:11:14,924 I can't stop thinking about it. This part, here. 231 00:11:15,007 --> 00:11:17,259 STEVEN: They're struggling with sexual desire and puberty, 232 00:11:17,343 --> 00:11:19,887 and these children have to learn to mentor themselves, 233 00:11:19,970 --> 00:11:22,139 because they have no adults they can rely on. 234 00:11:22,223 --> 00:11:25,101 It's your terrible chastity that's driving me to this! 235 00:11:25,184 --> 00:11:27,269 Hanschen! That's enough in there! 236 00:11:27,353 --> 00:11:29,480 STEVEN: And the adult refusal to heed those 237 00:11:29,563 --> 00:11:32,358 children's frustrations results in tragic consequences. 238 00:11:32,441 --> 00:11:34,235 -You failed. Haven't you? -MORITZ: I only meant to-- 239 00:11:34,318 --> 00:11:36,237 -I see it in your face. -But Father-- 240 00:11:37,029 --> 00:11:40,032 ♪ No sleep in heaven ♪ 241 00:11:40,116 --> 00:11:46,163 ♪ Or Bethlehem ♪ 242 00:11:46,247 --> 00:11:47,790 (AUDIENCE APPLAUDING) 243 00:11:47,873 --> 00:11:51,293 In 1999, in the wake of the shootings at Columbine... 244 00:11:51,377 --> 00:11:53,087 (INHALES) ...I felt we're living this. 245 00:11:53,170 --> 00:11:54,505 -♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ -STEVEN: That was 246 00:11:54,588 --> 00:11:57,174 what gave impetus to doing this show. 247 00:11:57,258 --> 00:11:58,634 CBS NEWS REPORTER: Fifteen people died 248 00:11:58,717 --> 00:12:01,804 in the carnage yesterday, 28 are injured. 249 00:12:03,055 --> 00:12:05,850 Everyone around me got shot. 250 00:12:05,933 --> 00:12:08,477 STEVEN: My determination for the show was to touch 251 00:12:08,561 --> 00:12:10,896 the troubled heart of youth around the world. 252 00:12:13,149 --> 00:12:14,942 And it had always seemed to me 253 00:12:15,025 --> 00:12:17,611 that this play was like an opera in waiting. 254 00:12:17,695 --> 00:12:19,864 BRIAN C. JOHNSTON: ♪ Living It's the bitch ♪ 255 00:12:19,947 --> 00:12:21,782 -Yeah. -♪ Of living ♪ 256 00:12:21,866 --> 00:12:24,326 ♪ Bitch, just the bitch... ♪ 257 00:12:24,410 --> 00:12:25,619 ♪ Yeah, bitch... ♪ 258 00:12:25,703 --> 00:12:29,081 DUNCAN SHEIK: In 1999, I met Steven Sater 259 00:12:29,165 --> 00:12:32,209 because we are both practicing Buddhists. 260 00:12:32,293 --> 00:12:34,753 He said, "Read this play. I think we should adapt it 261 00:12:34,837 --> 00:12:36,130 as a musical." 262 00:12:36,213 --> 00:12:38,841 I'm a singer, songwriter who makes records. 263 00:12:38,924 --> 00:12:42,178 In 1996, I released my first album. 264 00:12:42,261 --> 00:12:43,596 It did pretty well. 265 00:12:43,679 --> 00:12:48,434 So, my first reaction was just like, "Plays are cool, 266 00:12:48,517 --> 00:12:51,145 plays with music, all good, 267 00:12:51,228 --> 00:12:53,564 but like musicals?" That was 268 00:12:53,647 --> 00:12:57,193 definitely not my cup of tea at that moment. 269 00:12:57,276 --> 00:12:59,320 (SINGING QUIETLY) ♪ It's the bitch of living ♪ 270 00:12:59,403 --> 00:13:01,864 ♪ It's the bitch of living ♪ 271 00:13:01,947 --> 00:13:03,866 STEVEN: Duncan said, "If I were to do anything 272 00:13:03,949 --> 00:13:05,075 in musical theater, I want 273 00:13:05,159 --> 00:13:07,328 the music to be relevant to the culture at large." 274 00:13:07,411 --> 00:13:08,829 And I thought... 275 00:13:08,913 --> 00:13:12,500 (INHALES) ...the place that these unheard yearnings 276 00:13:12,583 --> 00:13:16,378 of young people... (INHALES) ...have been expressed 277 00:13:16,462 --> 00:13:19,048 and relieved for generations has been rock music. 278 00:13:19,131 --> 00:13:22,676 ♪ Looks so nasty In those khakis... ♪ 279 00:13:22,760 --> 00:13:26,055 DUNCAN: So I read the play. I thought it was awesome. 280 00:13:26,138 --> 00:13:29,850 You know, so racy and so sort of punk rock. 281 00:13:29,934 --> 00:13:32,728 And Steven just started faxing me lyrics. 282 00:13:32,811 --> 00:13:35,731 -(DUNCAN CHUCKLING) -All right, let's start it again, from the top. 283 00:13:35,814 --> 00:13:37,316 MICHAEL MAYER: In 1999, 284 00:13:37,399 --> 00:13:39,860 Steven Sater called out of the blue, 285 00:13:39,944 --> 00:13:41,195 and he said he had this idea. 286 00:13:41,278 --> 00:13:43,197 Wait, Michael, do you want us all to stand up? 287 00:13:43,280 --> 00:13:46,116 Okay, so it's-- But the thing that really... (IMITATES MUSIC) 288 00:13:46,200 --> 00:13:47,284 And then we add him. 289 00:13:47,368 --> 00:13:50,704 I had some success and failure back-to-back 290 00:13:50,788 --> 00:13:52,665 early on in my Broadway career, 291 00:13:52,748 --> 00:13:55,501 and Broadway was never something that I had dreamed of. 292 00:13:55,584 --> 00:13:59,922 I was doing my first film, but I loved Spring Awakening. 293 00:14:00,005 --> 00:14:01,340 It's catnip for a director. 294 00:14:01,423 --> 00:14:04,927 Then we add Johnny. And then on that, everyone's up. 295 00:14:05,010 --> 00:14:06,011 It was unfinished. 296 00:14:06,095 --> 00:14:08,264 There was never a definitive version of it. 297 00:14:08,347 --> 00:14:09,807 DUNCAN: We had this initial conception 298 00:14:09,890 --> 00:14:14,228 that maybe we should set it in, like, 1950s America. 299 00:14:14,311 --> 00:14:15,563 And then really quickly, 300 00:14:15,646 --> 00:14:17,481 I realized as much as I don't like musical theater, 301 00:14:17,565 --> 00:14:19,567 I really don't like '50s rock and roll. 302 00:14:19,650 --> 00:14:21,819 That's like not my thing either. 303 00:14:21,902 --> 00:14:23,946 And Michael was the one who was like, "Oh, yeah, 304 00:14:24,029 --> 00:14:26,532 let's just make the music completely contemporary." 305 00:14:26,615 --> 00:14:28,993 STEVEN: But I've never wanted to write the kind of lyrics 306 00:14:29,076 --> 00:14:30,911 that forward plot. This is part of how... 307 00:14:30,995 --> 00:14:33,247 (INHALES) ...our show is a different kind of musical. 308 00:14:33,330 --> 00:14:36,041 I wanted them to take us into what cannot be said 309 00:14:36,125 --> 00:14:37,876 and what can only be felt. 310 00:14:37,960 --> 00:14:40,671 MICHAEL MAYER: And then I had an image of a boy 311 00:14:40,754 --> 00:14:44,883 in his 19th century German tight little jacket 312 00:14:44,967 --> 00:14:48,512 and breeches, and little shoes and stockings, 313 00:14:48,596 --> 00:14:53,559 pulling a microphone out and becoming in that moment, 314 00:14:53,642 --> 00:14:55,394 any kid, any time 315 00:14:55,477 --> 00:14:57,771 dealing with this universal teenage angst. 316 00:14:57,855 --> 00:14:59,523 ♪ ("THE BITCH OF LIVING" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 317 00:14:59,607 --> 00:15:01,108 ♪ God, I dreamed There was an angel ♪ 318 00:15:01,191 --> 00:15:03,277 ♪ Who could hear me Through the wall ♪ 319 00:15:03,360 --> 00:15:05,154 ♪ As I cried out like in Latin ♪ 320 00:15:05,237 --> 00:15:07,114 ♪ This is so not life at all ♪ 321 00:15:07,197 --> 00:15:09,450 ♪ Help me out Out of this nightmare ♪ 322 00:15:09,533 --> 00:15:11,243 ♪ Then I heard her silver call ♪ 323 00:15:11,327 --> 00:15:13,245 ♪ She said "Just give it time, kid ♪ 324 00:15:13,329 --> 00:15:14,788 ♪ I come to one and all" ♪ 325 00:15:14,872 --> 00:15:16,790 ♪ She said, "Give me That hand please... ♪ 326 00:15:16,874 --> 00:15:19,460 The sound of John Gallagher singing the beginning 327 00:15:19,543 --> 00:15:22,379 of "Bitch of Living" is Spring Awakening. 328 00:15:22,463 --> 00:15:23,464 It's like... (EXHALES) 329 00:15:23,547 --> 00:15:24,965 ♪ Oh, we'll work That silver magic ♪ 330 00:15:25,049 --> 00:15:26,967 ♪ Then we'll aim it At the wall ♪ 331 00:15:27,051 --> 00:15:29,178 ♪ She said, "Love may Make you blind, kid" ♪ 332 00:15:29,261 --> 00:15:30,638 ♪ But I wouldn't mind at all ♪ 333 00:15:30,721 --> 00:15:35,017 -♪ It's the bitch of living ♪ -♪ Bitch, just the bitch ♪ 334 00:15:35,100 --> 00:15:38,520 -♪ Nothing but your hand ♪ -♪ Just the bitch, yeah ♪ 335 00:15:38,604 --> 00:15:42,650 ♪ Just the bitch of living As someone you can't stand ♪ 336 00:15:42,733 --> 00:15:44,735 ♪ See, each night It's, like, fantastic ♪ 337 00:15:44,818 --> 00:15:48,781 ♪ Tossing, turning without rest 'Cause my day's at the piano ♪ 338 00:15:48,864 --> 00:15:50,658 ♪ With my teacher And her breasts ♪ 339 00:15:50,741 --> 00:15:52,826 ♪ And the music's Like the one thing ♪ 340 00:15:52,910 --> 00:15:54,578 ♪ I can even get at all ♪ 341 00:15:54,662 --> 00:15:56,664 ♪ And those breasts I mean, God, please ♪ 342 00:15:56,747 --> 00:15:58,624 ♪ Just let those apples fall ♪ 343 00:15:58,707 --> 00:16:00,793 ♪ It's the bitch of living ♪ 344 00:16:00,876 --> 00:16:02,878 -♪ Bitch ♪ -♪ Ah, ah, ah ♪ 345 00:16:02,961 --> 00:16:06,548 ♪ With nothing going on Nothing going on ♪ 346 00:16:06,632 --> 00:16:08,550 ♪ Just the bitch of living ♪ 347 00:16:08,634 --> 00:16:11,053 ♪ Asking, "What went wrong?" ♪ 348 00:16:11,136 --> 00:16:14,098 ♪ Do they think we want this? ♪ 349 00:16:14,181 --> 00:16:18,060 ♪ Oh, who knows... ♪ 350 00:16:18,143 --> 00:16:21,397 So, we started working. We had a handful of songs 351 00:16:21,480 --> 00:16:22,439 and a handful of scenes, 352 00:16:22,523 --> 00:16:24,191 and a handful of lovely young actors. 353 00:16:24,274 --> 00:16:26,443 LEA: I did the first workshop of Spring Awakening 354 00:16:26,527 --> 00:16:28,404 when I was 14 years old. 355 00:16:28,487 --> 00:16:32,282 Even at 14, I was like, "What is this? 356 00:16:32,366 --> 00:16:34,368 I have to do this." 357 00:16:34,451 --> 00:16:36,078 STEVEN: For the years we worked on it... 358 00:16:36,161 --> 00:16:37,955 (CHUCKLES) ...we were rejected everywhere, 359 00:16:38,038 --> 00:16:39,748 and everyone thought we were out of our minds. 360 00:16:39,832 --> 00:16:42,084 We're sending a script with this classical diction 361 00:16:42,167 --> 00:16:44,753 and German names that no one could pronounce 362 00:16:44,837 --> 00:16:46,505 and a rock CD. 363 00:16:46,588 --> 00:16:48,674 MICHAEL: And then I invited Tom Hulce, 364 00:16:48,757 --> 00:16:51,093 with whom I was doing my first film, 365 00:16:51,176 --> 00:16:53,512 to come and see a workshop. 366 00:16:53,595 --> 00:16:56,598 As soon as he said 1890s in Germany, 367 00:16:56,682 --> 00:16:59,435 and then the guitar plays and the microphones come out, 368 00:16:59,518 --> 00:17:02,563 I thought, well, that's a genius theatrical idea. 369 00:17:02,646 --> 00:17:03,564 I thought, "Oh, my God, 370 00:17:03,647 --> 00:17:05,649 this is kind of crazy and amazing." 371 00:17:05,733 --> 00:17:07,192 And six months later, 372 00:17:07,276 --> 00:17:09,236 we got a concert at Lincoln Center 373 00:17:09,319 --> 00:17:11,572 in the American Songbook series. 374 00:17:11,655 --> 00:17:15,409 This was it. We invited every artistic director, 375 00:17:15,492 --> 00:17:17,411 every commercial producer we knew, 376 00:17:17,494 --> 00:17:18,912 and we got them all there. 377 00:17:18,996 --> 00:17:21,665 DUNCAN: We had spent three years working on it at that point, 378 00:17:21,749 --> 00:17:23,459 and it was sort of dead in the water. 379 00:17:23,542 --> 00:17:25,294 It really was a last-ditch effort 380 00:17:25,377 --> 00:17:29,131 to sort of save the project from nonexistence. 381 00:17:29,214 --> 00:17:32,342 ♪ See them showering At gym class ♪ 382 00:17:33,552 --> 00:17:35,888 ♪ Bobby Mahler, he's the best ♪ 383 00:17:37,181 --> 00:17:41,143 ♪ Looks so nasty In those khakis ♪ 384 00:17:41,226 --> 00:17:44,980 ♪ God, my whole life's Like some test ♪ 385 00:17:45,063 --> 00:17:48,358 -♪ Then there's Marianna Wheelan ♪ -♪ (CHORUS VOCALIZING) ♪ 386 00:17:49,359 --> 00:17:53,197 ♪ As if she'd return my call ♪ 387 00:17:53,280 --> 00:17:57,117 ♪ It's like, just kiss Some ass, man ♪ 388 00:17:57,201 --> 00:18:01,497 ♪ Then you can screw 'em all ♪ 389 00:18:01,580 --> 00:18:04,666 -♪ (ALL VOCALIZING) ♪ -♪ (MUSIC BUILDS) ♪ 390 00:18:04,750 --> 00:18:07,211 -♪ It's the bitch of living ♪ -(AUDIENCE APPLAUDING, CHEERING) 391 00:18:07,294 --> 00:18:09,046 CHORUS: ♪ It's the bitch of living ♪ 392 00:18:09,129 --> 00:18:13,008 -♪ And living in your head ♪ -♪ In your head ♪ 393 00:18:13,091 --> 00:18:15,302 -♪ It's the bitch ♪ -♪ Of living ♪ 394 00:18:15,385 --> 00:18:16,970 ♪ And sensing God is dead ♪ 395 00:18:17,054 --> 00:18:21,350 -♪ It's the bitch of living ♪ -♪ You watch me, just watch me ♪ 396 00:18:21,433 --> 00:18:23,310 ♪ And trying to get ahead ♪ 397 00:18:23,393 --> 00:18:25,521 MELCHIOR: ♪ I'm calling and one day ♪ 398 00:18:25,604 --> 00:18:28,732 -♪ It's the bitch of living ♪ -♪ And just getting out of bed ♪ 399 00:18:28,816 --> 00:18:33,612 -♪ All will know ♪ -♪ It's the bitch of living Living, living ♪ 400 00:18:33,695 --> 00:18:36,990 -♪ And getting what you get ♪ -♪ All will know ♪ 401 00:18:37,074 --> 00:18:41,245 -♪ Just the bitch of living ♪ -♪ And knowing this is it ♪ 402 00:18:41,328 --> 00:18:43,747 ♪ God, is this it? ♪ 403 00:18:44,498 --> 00:18:50,337 ♪ This can't be it ♪ 404 00:18:51,296 --> 00:18:53,048 ♪ Oh, God, what a bitch ♪ 405 00:18:53,131 --> 00:18:58,303 (AUDIENCE APPLAUDING, CHEERING) 406 00:18:58,387 --> 00:19:03,475 The Lincoln Center concert was a complete dog of a night. 407 00:19:03,559 --> 00:19:05,394 TOM HULCE: It occurred to Michael and I, who were, 408 00:19:05,477 --> 00:19:08,146 you know, standing towards the back, that something 409 00:19:08,230 --> 00:19:12,651 was very wrong in the room and, like, it was clear 410 00:19:12,734 --> 00:19:14,528 that there wasn't a connection happening, 411 00:19:14,611 --> 00:19:15,612 and we realized 412 00:19:15,696 --> 00:19:17,865 that nobody could find who was singing 413 00:19:17,948 --> 00:19:20,033 because by the time they found the person, 414 00:19:20,117 --> 00:19:21,743 somebody else was singing. 415 00:19:21,827 --> 00:19:23,203 There was not a laugh. 416 00:19:23,287 --> 00:19:25,581 No one really knew what the hell was going on. 417 00:19:25,664 --> 00:19:28,917 TOM: It became clear that we were possibly 418 00:19:29,001 --> 00:19:30,752 at a disastrous experience... 419 00:19:30,836 --> 00:19:33,213 (LAUGHS) ...that we had put together. 420 00:19:33,297 --> 00:19:37,593 And then about 25 minutes later, a 15-year-old girl sang 421 00:19:37,676 --> 00:19:39,344 "The Dark I Know Well." 422 00:19:39,428 --> 00:19:42,598 Suddenly all the focus just went... (EXHALES) 423 00:19:42,681 --> 00:19:48,645 ♪ ("THE DARK I KNOW WELL" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING ) ♪ 424 00:19:48,729 --> 00:19:50,731 Martha, time for bed now. 425 00:19:50,814 --> 00:19:54,568 ♪ There is a part I can't tell ♪ 426 00:19:54,651 --> 00:19:57,905 ♪ About the dark I know well ♪ 427 00:19:57,988 --> 00:20:00,157 Martha, darling, put on that new nightgown, 428 00:20:00,240 --> 00:20:02,075 the pretty ruffled one your father bought you. 429 00:20:02,159 --> 00:20:04,912 She has this secret that she can never share. 430 00:20:04,995 --> 00:20:08,373 ♪ Time for bed now, child ♪ 431 00:20:08,457 --> 00:20:11,710 ♪ Mom just smiles That smile... ♪ 432 00:20:11,793 --> 00:20:13,921 It's about having a wall up 433 00:20:14,588 --> 00:20:16,798 to be able to survive. 434 00:20:16,882 --> 00:20:20,010 ♪ Just like she never saw me ♪ 435 00:20:20,093 --> 00:20:24,765 ♪ So I leave Wanting just to hide ♪ 436 00:20:24,848 --> 00:20:28,977 ♪ Knowing deep inside ♪ 437 00:20:29,061 --> 00:20:31,647 ♪ You are coming to me ♪ 438 00:20:31,730 --> 00:20:34,024 LILLI: Her father is molesting her, 439 00:20:34,107 --> 00:20:36,234 and her mother is accepting that. 440 00:20:36,318 --> 00:20:40,322 ♪ You say all you want Is just a kiss goodnight ♪ 441 00:20:40,405 --> 00:20:41,823 ♪ Then you hold me ♪ 442 00:20:41,907 --> 00:20:44,701 ♪ And you whisper "Child, the Lord won't mind" ♪ 443 00:20:44,785 --> 00:20:48,205 ♪ It's just you and me ♪ 444 00:20:48,288 --> 00:20:52,334 ♪ Child, you're a beauty ♪ 445 00:20:53,877 --> 00:20:55,504 ♪ God, it's good, the lovin' ♪ 446 00:20:55,587 --> 00:20:57,714 ♪ Ain't it good tonight? ♪ 447 00:20:57,798 --> 00:21:02,094 ♪ You ain't seen nothing yet Gonna treat you right ♪ 448 00:21:02,177 --> 00:21:05,305 ♪ It's just you and me ♪ 449 00:21:05,389 --> 00:21:08,058 ♪ Child, you're a beauty ♪ 450 00:21:08,141 --> 00:21:10,435 LILLI: Martha sings, then Ilse sings. 451 00:21:10,519 --> 00:21:12,521 And it was a terrifying realization 452 00:21:12,604 --> 00:21:16,316 that there are countless women and girls going through this. 453 00:21:16,400 --> 00:21:21,738 ♪ I don't scream Though I know it's wrong ♪ 454 00:21:21,822 --> 00:21:26,118 ♪ I just play along ♪ 455 00:21:26,201 --> 00:21:30,497 ♪ I lie there and breathe ♪ 456 00:21:30,580 --> 00:21:33,291 ♪ Lie there and breathe ♪ 457 00:21:33,375 --> 00:21:38,547 ♪ I want to be strong I want the world to find out ♪ 458 00:21:38,630 --> 00:21:42,634 ♪ That you're dreaming on me ♪ 459 00:21:42,718 --> 00:21:46,722 ♪ Me and my beauty ♪ 460 00:21:46,805 --> 00:21:49,766 -♪ Me and my beauty ♪ -♪ Me and my beauty ♪ 461 00:21:49,850 --> 00:21:54,396 ♪ You say all you want Is just a kiss goodnight ♪ 462 00:21:54,479 --> 00:21:56,732 ♪ Then you hold me And you whisper ♪ 463 00:21:56,815 --> 00:21:58,859 ♪ Child, the Lord won't mind ♪ 464 00:21:58,942 --> 00:22:01,945 ♪ It's just you and me... ♪ 465 00:22:02,029 --> 00:22:04,781 LAUREN: That is so many fuckin' people's reality. 466 00:22:04,865 --> 00:22:06,825 I had that happen to me when I was a child 467 00:22:06,908 --> 00:22:08,243 by a family member. 468 00:22:09,453 --> 00:22:11,038 And I was very, very young. 469 00:22:11,121 --> 00:22:15,917 I was four years old till I was eight years old. 470 00:22:16,001 --> 00:22:19,421 And singing about it is fucking weird. (CHUCKLES) 471 00:22:19,504 --> 00:22:23,091 ♪ Child, you're a beauty ♪ 472 00:22:23,175 --> 00:22:27,471 ♪ There's a part I can't tell ♪ 473 00:22:27,554 --> 00:22:31,767 ♪ About the dark I know well ♪ 474 00:22:31,850 --> 00:22:36,104 ♪ There's a part I can't tell ♪ 475 00:22:36,188 --> 00:22:41,068 ♪ About the dark I know well ♪ 476 00:22:41,151 --> 00:22:46,281 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 477 00:22:46,365 --> 00:22:48,658 After Lincoln Center, we simultaneously 478 00:22:48,742 --> 00:22:51,161 had this sense of like, "Yes, we're going to go to Broadway, 479 00:22:51,244 --> 00:22:53,246 and this is gonna be the best thing ever." 480 00:22:53,330 --> 00:22:55,999 And then like, uh, like "What are we doing?" 481 00:22:56,083 --> 00:22:58,210 And I thought, "Oh well, you know what? 482 00:22:58,293 --> 00:23:00,170 We did our best, right?" 483 00:23:00,253 --> 00:23:04,800 Except, Neil Pepe from the Atlantic Theater Company 484 00:23:04,883 --> 00:23:07,969 and Ira Pittelman, who's an independent producer, 485 00:23:08,053 --> 00:23:09,471 were there that night. 486 00:23:09,554 --> 00:23:11,139 The two of them liked it. 487 00:23:11,223 --> 00:23:16,770 And so out of what was frankly a fairly catastrophic evening 488 00:23:16,853 --> 00:23:19,940 for me and Tom, came an opportunity. 489 00:23:20,023 --> 00:23:22,984 -At that point, we were all systems go. -♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 490 00:23:23,068 --> 00:23:25,987 TOM: Once we knew the Atlantic was gonna give us a home, 491 00:23:26,071 --> 00:23:28,532 we cast these young people 492 00:23:28,615 --> 00:23:31,076 from all across the United States. 493 00:23:31,159 --> 00:23:33,245 MICHAEL: Lea came in. She was 14. 494 00:23:33,328 --> 00:23:35,956 She had three Broadway shows to her credit. 495 00:23:36,039 --> 00:23:37,374 She had this astonishing voice, 496 00:23:37,457 --> 00:23:40,127 and we fell instantly in love with her. 497 00:23:40,210 --> 00:23:44,589 But it wasn't like a done deal. So she worked her ass off. 498 00:23:44,673 --> 00:23:47,342 I was so concerned with doing good 499 00:23:47,425 --> 00:23:50,804 and making Michael happy. It's like all I wanted. 500 00:23:50,887 --> 00:23:55,809 TOM: Jonathan, he had been on a tour of The Sound of Music. 501 00:23:55,892 --> 00:24:00,730 Jonathan Groff was, to my mind, a chorus boy. 502 00:24:00,814 --> 00:24:03,316 JONATHAN: I came into the audition and the callbacks 503 00:24:03,400 --> 00:24:07,487 as the wild card Melchior. I was the last one on the list. 504 00:24:07,571 --> 00:24:11,158 When we first met Lauren, she took off her shoes 505 00:24:11,241 --> 00:24:15,996 and stood barefoot and opened her mouth and, like, 506 00:24:16,079 --> 00:24:18,540 blew us away. 507 00:24:18,623 --> 00:24:21,459 JOHN: I went and auditioned. I was really nervous. 508 00:24:21,543 --> 00:24:24,045 I didn't have any formal vocal training. 509 00:24:24,129 --> 00:24:25,589 I got a final callback, 510 00:24:25,672 --> 00:24:28,049 and then I walked out of my final callback 511 00:24:28,133 --> 00:24:31,052 because I had such tremendous stage fright. 512 00:24:31,136 --> 00:24:33,221 But I turned back around and I went back up, 513 00:24:33,305 --> 00:24:34,723 and then I got the part. 514 00:24:34,806 --> 00:24:37,184 LILLI: I was 15 when I was cast in the show. 515 00:24:37,267 --> 00:24:39,269 I was in school during the day, 516 00:24:40,187 --> 00:24:41,479 and then doing homework 517 00:24:41,563 --> 00:24:43,899 in between school and the show at night. 518 00:24:43,982 --> 00:24:46,526 MICHAEL: These kids, they were in high school, you know, 519 00:24:46,610 --> 00:24:49,738 Remi and Gerard were tutored while we were doing this. 520 00:24:49,821 --> 00:24:54,284 For a lot of them, it was their first real professional gig. 521 00:24:54,367 --> 00:24:56,494 They were amazing and brilliant. 522 00:24:56,578 --> 00:24:58,205 And then we did rehearsals, 523 00:24:58,288 --> 00:25:00,415 and then we opened at the Atlantic. 524 00:25:01,541 --> 00:25:04,336 LEA: The Atlantic Theater was this hidden gem. 525 00:25:04,419 --> 00:25:08,215 It was a church. And the eeriness of that 526 00:25:08,298 --> 00:25:13,511 and just those old walls and, um, the old brick. 527 00:25:13,595 --> 00:25:16,598 There's just something about that space 528 00:25:16,681 --> 00:25:18,475 that I think blessed us, truly. 529 00:25:18,558 --> 00:25:20,101 ♪ ("TOUCH ME" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 530 00:25:20,185 --> 00:25:22,520 -MELCHIOR: ♪ Touch me ♪ -CHORUS: ♪ All silent ♪ 531 00:25:22,604 --> 00:25:25,315 -MELCHIOR: ♪ All silent ♪ -CHORUS: ♪ Baby, just tell me ♪ 532 00:25:25,398 --> 00:25:26,942 MELCHIOR: ♪ Tell me please... ♪ 533 00:25:27,025 --> 00:25:29,444 JOHN: That was really where I think we all really became friends, 534 00:25:29,527 --> 00:25:31,404 and we became a family. 535 00:25:31,488 --> 00:25:33,573 MELCHIOR: ♪ Consume my wine... ♪ 536 00:25:33,657 --> 00:25:37,285 It was a cauldron of hormones 537 00:25:37,369 --> 00:25:40,830 and excitement and dreams of success. 538 00:25:40,914 --> 00:25:45,252 It was like the coolest thing. I was with these cool kids. 539 00:25:45,335 --> 00:25:47,921 JONATHAN: We were going to dinners together. 540 00:25:48,004 --> 00:25:49,923 We were doing this show. 541 00:25:50,006 --> 00:25:53,301 It was like this summer camp of all summer camp experiences. 542 00:25:53,385 --> 00:25:54,719 MICHAEL: There was a big... 543 00:25:54,803 --> 00:25:56,054 I don't even know what you'd call it, 544 00:25:56,137 --> 00:25:59,099 mattress or pile of cushions or something. 545 00:25:59,182 --> 00:26:02,978 And they were just all piled on top of each other all the time. 546 00:26:03,061 --> 00:26:05,397 -CHORUS: ♪ Touch me ♪ -GEORG: ♪ Oh, oh ♪ 547 00:26:05,480 --> 00:26:08,233 -CHORUS: ♪ Just try it ♪ -GEORG: ♪ Just, just try it ♪ 548 00:26:08,316 --> 00:26:10,819 -CHORUS: ♪ Now that's it ♪ -GEORG: ♪ Now there that's it ♪ 549 00:26:10,902 --> 00:26:14,281 ♪ Oh God, that's heaven Touch me ♪ 550 00:26:14,364 --> 00:26:19,995 -♪ I'll love your light ♪ -♪ Oh, I'll love you right ♪ 551 00:26:20,078 --> 00:26:22,330 ♪ We'll wander down ♪ 552 00:26:22,414 --> 00:26:24,958 ♪ Where the sins cry ♪ 553 00:26:25,041 --> 00:26:28,336 -♪ Touch me ♪ -♪ Oh ♪ 554 00:26:28,420 --> 00:26:31,131 ♪ Just like that ♪ 555 00:26:31,214 --> 00:26:36,011 ♪ Now lower down Where the sins cry ♪ 556 00:26:36,094 --> 00:26:39,264 -♪ Love me ♪ -♪ Oh, love me, yeah ♪ 557 00:26:39,347 --> 00:26:42,517 -♪ Just for a bit ♪ -♪ Ooh ♪ 558 00:26:42,600 --> 00:26:45,186 ♪ We'll wander down ♪ 559 00:26:45,270 --> 00:26:50,317 ♪ Where the winds sigh ♪ 560 00:26:50,400 --> 00:26:54,612 ♪ Where the winds sigh... ♪ 561 00:26:54,696 --> 00:26:56,156 LEA: It was very intense. 562 00:26:56,239 --> 00:26:58,783 If you were able to see Spring Awakening 563 00:26:58,867 --> 00:26:59,826 at the Atlantic Theater, 564 00:26:59,909 --> 00:27:02,329 you got to see something very special. 565 00:27:02,412 --> 00:27:06,958 -Of course they will, yeah. -(ALL APPLAUD) 566 00:27:07,042 --> 00:27:09,127 You could also back up, Lea. 567 00:27:09,210 --> 00:27:10,378 You could back up, back up, back up, 568 00:27:10,462 --> 00:27:12,213 ♪ Where the winds sigh Where the winds sigh ♪ 569 00:27:12,297 --> 00:27:13,798 ♪ Where the winds sigh ♪ 570 00:27:13,882 --> 00:27:15,425 And you could even sit if you want. 571 00:27:15,508 --> 00:27:16,885 -And then, Melchi-- -LEA: For the applause. 572 00:27:16,968 --> 00:27:18,636 Yes, sit for the applause and then enter. 573 00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:21,639 LEA: When I first met Jonathan, I felt like I had to take him 574 00:27:21,723 --> 00:27:23,350 -under my wing. -(CHUCKLES) 575 00:27:23,433 --> 00:27:26,853 He was this country mouse, and I was this city mouse. 576 00:27:26,936 --> 00:27:30,023 Jonathan came from the farm in Lancaster, Pennsylvania. 577 00:27:30,106 --> 00:27:34,569 He had gel so hard in his hair, it was cement. 578 00:27:34,652 --> 00:27:36,696 This is my favorite spot. 579 00:27:36,780 --> 00:27:38,865 My private place for thinking. 580 00:27:38,948 --> 00:27:41,034 -I'm sorry. (CHUCKLES) -No, no, please. 581 00:27:41,117 --> 00:27:43,661 JONATHAN: I was so excited working with Lea. 582 00:27:43,745 --> 00:27:45,080 So... 583 00:27:46,289 --> 00:27:48,249 (SMACKS LIPS) How have you been doing-- fuck. 584 00:27:48,333 --> 00:27:50,085 -(LAUGHS) -(AUDIENCE CHUCKLING) 585 00:27:50,168 --> 00:27:51,795 JONATHAN: Lea had done Spring Awakening 586 00:27:51,878 --> 00:27:54,005 since she was 14 years old, in workshops. 587 00:27:54,089 --> 00:27:57,717 And her work was astounding. 588 00:27:57,801 --> 00:27:59,344 Can't you sit for a moment? 589 00:28:01,346 --> 00:28:02,514 When you lean back 590 00:28:02,597 --> 00:28:04,891 against this oak and stare up at the clouds... 591 00:28:04,974 --> 00:28:06,559 ...you start to think hypnotic things. 592 00:28:06,643 --> 00:28:08,937 -I have to get back before 5:00. -But when you lie here, 593 00:28:09,020 --> 00:28:11,898 such a strange, wonderful peace settles over you. 594 00:28:11,981 --> 00:28:15,068 -♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ -LEA: I wanted to help him. 595 00:28:15,151 --> 00:28:18,571 I thought, "We'll become friends so that we can, you know, 596 00:28:18,655 --> 00:28:21,116 make our characters believable, and then that'll be that." 597 00:28:21,199 --> 00:28:23,243 ♪ ("THE WORD OF YOUR BODY" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 598 00:28:23,326 --> 00:28:26,079 ♪ Don't feel a thing, you wish ♪ 599 00:28:28,665 --> 00:28:33,545 ♪ Grasping at pearls With my fingertips ♪ 600 00:28:33,628 --> 00:28:37,966 But then I fell in love with him in more ways than one. 601 00:28:38,049 --> 00:28:42,429 ♪ Holding her hand Like some little tease ♪ 602 00:28:44,556 --> 00:28:52,105 ♪ Haven't you heard The word of my wanting? ♪ 603 00:28:52,188 --> 00:28:59,779 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna be wounded ♪ 604 00:28:59,863 --> 00:29:07,620 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna be your wound ♪ 605 00:29:07,704 --> 00:29:11,040 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna bruise you... ♪ 606 00:29:11,124 --> 00:29:13,251 JONATHAN: Lea and I were so young. 607 00:29:13,334 --> 00:29:16,004 We were still figuring out who we were. 608 00:29:16,087 --> 00:29:19,841 ♪ Oh, you're gonna be My bruise... ♪ 609 00:29:19,924 --> 00:29:23,678 We were playing these parts, but we were working shit out 610 00:29:23,761 --> 00:29:25,180 with each other. 611 00:29:25,263 --> 00:29:28,516 ♪ Just too unreal, all this ♪ 612 00:29:30,768 --> 00:29:37,025 ♪ Watching his world Slip through my fist ♪ 613 00:29:38,526 --> 00:29:44,073 ♪ Playing with her In your fantasies ♪ 614 00:29:46,409 --> 00:29:49,829 ♪ Haven't you heard the word ♪ 615 00:29:49,913 --> 00:29:54,000 ♪ How I want you? ♪ 616 00:29:54,083 --> 00:30:01,132 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna be wounded ♪ 617 00:30:01,925 --> 00:30:08,932 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna be your wound ♪ 618 00:30:09,766 --> 00:30:17,315 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna bruise you ♪ 619 00:30:17,398 --> 00:30:24,197 ♪ Oh, you're gonna be My bruise ♪ 620 00:30:24,280 --> 00:30:28,660 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 621 00:30:28,743 --> 00:30:31,162 STEVEN: That is about the bruise of love. 622 00:30:31,246 --> 00:30:35,375 It's the anticipation of a wound in feeling desire, love. 623 00:30:35,458 --> 00:30:38,753 These young people, in being drawn to one another, 624 00:30:38,836 --> 00:30:41,589 what they sense is not just, "Oh, I wanna be with you," 625 00:30:41,673 --> 00:30:43,508 it's, "I'm gonna be wounded by you. 626 00:30:43,591 --> 00:30:46,553 I'm gonna carry the wound of this desire, 627 00:30:46,636 --> 00:30:48,638 carrying the bruise of love 628 00:30:48,721 --> 00:30:51,349 -the rest of my life." -Please. Please, Wendla. 629 00:30:51,432 --> 00:30:54,811 (LEA HUMMING) 630 00:30:54,894 --> 00:30:57,105 MICHAEL: I think there's too much kissing. 631 00:30:57,188 --> 00:30:59,315 I think that you've got nowhere to go then. 632 00:30:59,399 --> 00:31:00,441 JONATHAN: Yeah. 633 00:31:00,525 --> 00:31:02,151 Well, I think when we're really doing it, 634 00:31:02,235 --> 00:31:03,528 it will be okay. 635 00:31:03,611 --> 00:31:06,364 Lea and I were given this material 636 00:31:06,447 --> 00:31:08,241 where we had to fall in love. 637 00:31:08,324 --> 00:31:10,952 -I could do like this? -I say, "Melchior." 638 00:31:11,035 --> 00:31:14,330 JONATHAN: Michael Mayer, here he is with these kids, 639 00:31:14,414 --> 00:31:16,874 and he has to direct... 640 00:31:16,958 --> 00:31:20,712 a like four-minute, incredibly detailed 641 00:31:20,795 --> 00:31:22,213 and choreographed... 642 00:31:23,548 --> 00:31:25,508 sex scene with children. 643 00:31:25,592 --> 00:31:27,885 -Melchior. -MICHAEL: That's it. She can see it. 644 00:31:27,969 --> 00:31:28,970 You don't have to-- 645 00:31:29,053 --> 00:31:30,346 -No, wait. No. -Right, exactly. 646 00:31:30,430 --> 00:31:32,599 -I can't. We're not supposed to. -What? 647 00:31:32,682 --> 00:31:34,934 But the first thing I felt was... 648 00:31:35,727 --> 00:31:37,145 "They're gonna know I'm gay. 649 00:31:37,228 --> 00:31:42,191 Fuck, I've never had sex with a girl, I'm in the closet. 650 00:31:42,275 --> 00:31:45,486 I'm gonna just pretend like I know what I'm doing." 651 00:31:47,196 --> 00:31:49,073 And then we kiss again. 652 00:31:49,782 --> 00:31:51,159 And then I find the neck. 653 00:31:51,242 --> 00:31:55,288 I wanted the choreography to tell me what to do 654 00:31:55,371 --> 00:31:59,459 and give me the moves and allow me to express myself, 655 00:31:59,542 --> 00:32:02,337 and thank God for Michael Mayer. 656 00:32:02,420 --> 00:32:06,341 -Don't. -MICHAEL: Yes, but maybe take it away from your body. 657 00:32:06,424 --> 00:32:07,925 -Don't. -MICHAEL: Yes. Exactly. 658 00:32:08,009 --> 00:32:08,968 Please? 659 00:32:09,052 --> 00:32:11,012 MICHAEL: I was aware he was gay, 660 00:32:11,095 --> 00:32:13,056 but that's his own personal life, 661 00:32:13,139 --> 00:32:14,474 and he'll deal with it 662 00:32:14,557 --> 00:32:16,643 when it's time for him to deal with it. 663 00:32:16,726 --> 00:32:19,687 And if he wants to talk to me, I'll be there for it. 664 00:32:19,771 --> 00:32:21,105 JONATHAN: And then I'll come in here. 665 00:32:21,189 --> 00:32:22,649 LEA: Mm-hmm. 666 00:32:22,732 --> 00:32:24,984 And then I can come into here and you stop me. 667 00:32:25,068 --> 00:32:26,819 Stop him again. Wait. 668 00:32:26,903 --> 00:32:30,490 -Melchi, no, it's just, it's-- -What? Sinful? 669 00:32:32,367 --> 00:32:34,452 JONATHAN: Coming from a religious background 670 00:32:34,535 --> 00:32:35,662 surrounded by the Amish, 671 00:32:35,745 --> 00:32:38,873 I felt... (INHALES SHARPLY) 672 00:32:41,417 --> 00:32:42,877 ...like, I felt... 673 00:32:44,754 --> 00:32:47,590 ashamed of who I was. 674 00:32:51,135 --> 00:32:52,303 (BOTH MOAN) 675 00:32:53,304 --> 00:32:54,514 Melchi, no! 676 00:32:54,597 --> 00:32:57,141 -I can't, we're not supposed to. -What? 677 00:32:57,225 --> 00:33:00,395 I also, I guess, was afraid that if... 678 00:33:02,522 --> 00:33:06,359 people knew who I was, 679 00:33:06,442 --> 00:33:10,905 they wouldn't find what I was doing believable. 680 00:33:10,988 --> 00:33:12,865 Not supposed to what? 681 00:33:13,950 --> 00:33:15,702 Love? 682 00:33:15,785 --> 00:33:17,286 I don't know. Is there such a thing? 683 00:33:17,370 --> 00:33:19,789 JONATHAN: But Lea and I, we were grasping 684 00:33:19,872 --> 00:33:22,458 onto each other. We were really in love. 685 00:33:22,542 --> 00:33:24,335 I hear your heart. 686 00:33:24,419 --> 00:33:26,629 ♪ ("I BELIEVE" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 687 00:33:26,713 --> 00:33:30,383 JONATHAN: I feel you breathing everywhere. 688 00:33:31,008 --> 00:33:34,053 The rain, the hay. 689 00:33:34,137 --> 00:33:35,805 LEA: I was so in love with him. 690 00:33:35,888 --> 00:33:38,224 Finally, I cornered him at a party, 691 00:33:38,307 --> 00:33:40,935 and I said to him, "Why don't you love me? 692 00:33:41,018 --> 00:33:43,229 Just love me. Why can't you love me? 693 00:33:43,312 --> 00:33:45,022 Like date me, love me?" 694 00:33:45,106 --> 00:33:48,359 And I just saw this look in his eyes, and in that moment, 695 00:33:48,443 --> 00:33:50,695 -I knew. -Please, Wendla. 696 00:33:50,778 --> 00:33:55,366 CHORUS: ♪ I believe I believe, I believe ♪ 697 00:33:55,450 --> 00:33:57,076 ♪ Oh, I believe ♪ 698 00:33:57,160 --> 00:33:58,995 -It's just that it's-- -What? 699 00:33:59,078 --> 00:34:00,163 -Sinful? -No. 700 00:34:00,246 --> 00:34:02,206 CHORUS: ♪ All will be forgiven I believe... ♪ 701 00:34:02,290 --> 00:34:03,332 -I don't know. -Then why? 702 00:34:03,416 --> 00:34:05,251 CHORUS: ♪ I believe, I believe ♪ 703 00:34:05,334 --> 00:34:07,128 Because it's good? 704 00:34:07,211 --> 00:34:09,422 Because it makes us feel something? 705 00:34:10,715 --> 00:34:12,967 CHORUS: ♪ All will be forgiven ♪ 706 00:34:13,050 --> 00:34:18,097 ♪ I believe, I believe, I believe ♪ 707 00:34:18,181 --> 00:34:22,101 ♪ Oh, I believe ♪ 708 00:34:22,185 --> 00:34:24,812 ♪ There is love in heaven ♪ 709 00:34:24,896 --> 00:34:28,858 ♪ I believe, I believe I believe ♪ 710 00:34:28,941 --> 00:34:33,112 -Don't be scared. -CHORUS: ♪ Oh, I believe... ♪ 711 00:34:33,196 --> 00:34:35,948 LEA: I realized in that moment, this is deep. 712 00:34:36,032 --> 00:34:38,159 And, um... 713 00:34:39,952 --> 00:34:44,165 and I need to, like, protect this. 714 00:34:44,248 --> 00:34:46,000 This is intense. (SNIFFLES) 715 00:34:46,083 --> 00:34:50,087 And I never asked him ever again about his sexuality, 716 00:34:50,171 --> 00:34:53,007 and it was sort of this-- I think he felt safe with me 717 00:34:53,090 --> 00:34:55,510 because he knew that I knew, 718 00:34:55,593 --> 00:34:57,345 and we could be best friends. 719 00:34:57,428 --> 00:34:59,555 And our relationship just grew and grew 720 00:34:59,639 --> 00:35:01,474 to the point where we would do the show 721 00:35:01,557 --> 00:35:03,351 and then we would go home together. 722 00:35:03,434 --> 00:35:09,148 -♪ There is love in heaven ♪ -♪ All will be forgiven ♪ 723 00:35:09,232 --> 00:35:13,611 -♪ There is love in heaven ♪ -♪ All will be forgiven ♪ 724 00:35:13,694 --> 00:35:15,154 -Wait! -It's just me. 725 00:35:15,238 --> 00:35:17,865 ♪ There is love in heaven... ♪ 726 00:35:17,949 --> 00:35:19,116 Just me. 727 00:35:20,701 --> 00:35:22,912 ♪ There is love in heaven ♪ 728 00:35:22,995 --> 00:35:26,332 -♪ I believe ♪ -♪ All will be forgiven ♪ 729 00:35:26,415 --> 00:35:28,459 ♪ There is love in heaven ♪ 730 00:35:28,543 --> 00:35:29,627 Now there! 731 00:35:29,710 --> 00:35:32,713 -♪ All will be forgiven ♪ -♪ I believe... ♪ 732 00:35:32,797 --> 00:35:34,590 -Now that's... -Yes? 733 00:35:34,674 --> 00:35:37,844 (MOANS) Yes. 734 00:35:37,927 --> 00:35:40,263 ♪ There is love in heaven ♪ 735 00:35:40,346 --> 00:35:43,391 -♪ Peace and joy be with them ♪ -♪ All will be forgiven ♪ 736 00:35:43,474 --> 00:35:49,063 -♪ Harmony and wisdom ♪ -♪ All will be forgiven ♪ 737 00:35:49,146 --> 00:35:54,986 ♪ Peace and joy be with them ♪ 738 00:35:55,069 --> 00:36:00,491 ♪ Harmony and wisdom ♪ 739 00:36:00,575 --> 00:36:07,415 -WENDLA: Melchior! (GASPS) -CHORUS: ♪ Oh, I believe ♪ 740 00:36:07,498 --> 00:36:09,041 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 741 00:36:09,125 --> 00:36:10,585 (AUDIENCE APPLAUDING) 742 00:36:10,668 --> 00:36:13,546 LEA: That's why Jonathan and I became so close. 743 00:36:13,629 --> 00:36:15,464 We were so intertwined. 744 00:36:15,548 --> 00:36:18,050 ♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 745 00:36:18,134 --> 00:36:20,845 JONATHAN: We made out so hard in this play. 746 00:36:23,514 --> 00:36:25,057 We would have like sweat, 747 00:36:25,141 --> 00:36:27,268 and snot was coming out of my nostril, 748 00:36:27,351 --> 00:36:30,438 and saliva, and tongues and mouths. 749 00:36:30,521 --> 00:36:35,276 Lea's like, eat-- her like mouth is on top of my mouth. 750 00:36:35,359 --> 00:36:36,569 LEA: We were so close. 751 00:36:36,652 --> 00:36:40,740 At one point, I literally showed him my whole vagina. 752 00:36:40,823 --> 00:36:45,953 (LAUGHS) I can confirm that. 753 00:36:46,037 --> 00:36:47,788 (CHUCKLES) He was like, "I've never seen 754 00:36:47,872 --> 00:36:49,665 a woman's vagina before. 755 00:36:49,749 --> 00:36:52,168 Would you show me?" And I was like, "Sure." 756 00:36:52,251 --> 00:36:54,754 In particular, I was interested in like 757 00:36:55,713 --> 00:36:58,174 the-- the, like, geography 758 00:36:58,257 --> 00:37:01,677 of the different parts, because I always thought 759 00:37:01,761 --> 00:37:04,555 that the clitoris was like... (LAUGHS) 760 00:37:04,639 --> 00:37:06,682 ...like right above the vagina hole. 761 00:37:06,766 --> 00:37:08,893 And I took a desk lamp. 762 00:37:08,976 --> 00:37:11,354 And she took a fucking desk lamp. 763 00:37:11,437 --> 00:37:13,564 And showed him. That's how close we are. 764 00:37:13,648 --> 00:37:16,484 I didn't realize it was so far north. 765 00:37:16,567 --> 00:37:21,948 And now I know. (LAUGHS) 766 00:37:22,031 --> 00:37:24,283 Does that explain it? (LAUGHS) 767 00:37:24,367 --> 00:37:27,620 I love that she told you that, oh my God. 768 00:37:27,703 --> 00:37:31,540 But I have never seen Jonathan naked. 769 00:37:31,624 --> 00:37:34,168 I've never seen his penis. 770 00:37:34,251 --> 00:37:36,671 JONATHAN: That summer at the Atlantic Theater 771 00:37:36,754 --> 00:37:39,465 was also very pressure filled. 772 00:37:39,548 --> 00:37:40,800 I have a vivid memory 773 00:37:40,883 --> 00:37:44,428 being in tech, on the hayloft with Lea, 774 00:37:44,512 --> 00:37:46,347 we're like half naked on the swing, 775 00:37:46,430 --> 00:37:50,643 and Ira Pittelman and Tom Hulce are having a fight. 776 00:37:50,726 --> 00:37:55,731 And Ira Pittelman is saying, "We cannot do this on a stage. 777 00:37:55,815 --> 00:37:58,484 We're gonna, like, get arrested." 778 00:37:58,567 --> 00:38:02,446 And Tom Hulce saying, "This is what the show is. 779 00:38:02,530 --> 00:38:04,156 We can't not do this. 780 00:38:04,240 --> 00:38:06,075 This is what Spring Awakening is about." 781 00:38:06,158 --> 00:38:09,328 TOM: People called up and said, "You cannot do this material." 782 00:38:09,412 --> 00:38:11,288 Everybody was just freaked out. 783 00:38:11,372 --> 00:38:14,917 MICHAEL: Spring Awakening was gonna be my last play. 784 00:38:15,001 --> 00:38:18,129 I was done with the theater. Done with New York. 785 00:38:18,212 --> 00:38:19,630 I was gonna move to L.A. 786 00:38:19,714 --> 00:38:22,258 So I was gonna do it my way no matter what, 787 00:38:22,341 --> 00:38:27,388 and I didn't give a fuck what anyone said. 788 00:38:27,471 --> 00:38:29,348 TOM: We did a huge amount of work. 789 00:38:29,432 --> 00:38:30,975 A song went in, a song went out. 790 00:38:31,058 --> 00:38:32,560 It was like the audience 791 00:38:32,643 --> 00:38:34,562 was awakening to the show 792 00:38:34,645 --> 00:38:37,565 at the same time the actors were discovering 793 00:38:37,648 --> 00:38:38,858 what it was they were doing. 794 00:38:38,941 --> 00:38:40,359 STEVEN: People were really moved. 795 00:38:40,443 --> 00:38:41,652 They were standing up. 796 00:38:41,736 --> 00:38:43,237 They might have understood what was going on. 797 00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:48,367 (LAUGHING) But they were touched by this show, you know. 798 00:38:48,451 --> 00:38:50,286 ♪ ("AND THEN THERE WERE NONE" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 799 00:38:50,369 --> 00:38:52,204 JONATHAN: The first time the New York Times came, 800 00:38:52,288 --> 00:38:55,249 Michael put like sage all over the theater. 801 00:38:55,332 --> 00:38:58,085 Michael went back to the dressing room 802 00:38:58,169 --> 00:39:00,504 and just said to the cast... 803 00:39:00,588 --> 00:39:03,424 "The future of this is in your hands." 804 00:39:03,507 --> 00:39:05,843 And that night, something happened in that theater 805 00:39:05,926 --> 00:39:09,346 that I had never experienced before. 806 00:39:09,430 --> 00:39:14,351 And it's like the entire building levitated 807 00:39:14,435 --> 00:39:20,649 and demanded to be in a bigger place. 808 00:39:20,733 --> 00:39:23,569 In The New York Times, Charles Isherwood gave us 809 00:39:23,652 --> 00:39:25,196 a fantastic review. 810 00:39:26,781 --> 00:39:27,907 People started coming. 811 00:39:27,990 --> 00:39:30,409 There were lines around the block to get in. 812 00:39:30,493 --> 00:39:32,578 ♪ Uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh Well, fine ♪ 813 00:39:32,661 --> 00:39:34,455 ♪ Not like it's even Worth the time ♪ 814 00:39:34,538 --> 00:39:36,415 ♪ But still, you know You wanted more ♪ 815 00:39:36,499 --> 00:39:40,461 ♪ Sorry, it won't change Been there before ♪ 816 00:39:40,544 --> 00:39:42,588 JOHN: I was like, "Wow, this is exciting." 817 00:39:42,671 --> 00:39:44,715 The lines getting longer for tickets every night, 818 00:39:44,799 --> 00:39:46,217 and our run keeps extending, 819 00:39:46,300 --> 00:39:47,802 and we're getting standing ovations now 820 00:39:47,885 --> 00:39:50,221 at the end of Act Two. That didn't happen before. 821 00:39:50,304 --> 00:39:52,264 ♪ The thing that sucks Okay for me ♪ 822 00:39:52,348 --> 00:39:54,141 ♪ A thousand bucks I'm like scot-free ♪ 823 00:39:54,225 --> 00:39:56,227 ♪ And I mean, please That's all I need ♪ 824 00:39:56,310 --> 00:40:00,606 ♪ Get real, okay By now, you know the score ♪ 825 00:40:00,689 --> 00:40:03,067 Then all the fancy people started coming down. 826 00:40:03,150 --> 00:40:05,319 David Byrne wants to come to the show. 827 00:40:05,402 --> 00:40:07,446 Lou Reed and Laurie Anderson are there. 828 00:40:07,530 --> 00:40:09,824 Keanu Reeves is like, you know, hanging out. 829 00:40:09,907 --> 00:40:12,493 And that was a very fun summer. (CHUCKLES) 830 00:40:12,576 --> 00:40:16,372 ♪ You wanna laugh It's too absurd ♪ 831 00:40:16,455 --> 00:40:20,292 ♪ You start to ask Can't hear a word ♪ 832 00:40:20,376 --> 00:40:27,091 ♪ You wanna crash and burn Right, tell me more ♪ 833 00:40:27,174 --> 00:40:28,676 CHRISTINE ESTABROOK: Still, Herr Stiefel, 834 00:40:28,759 --> 00:40:30,845 one thing in your letter disturbed me. 835 00:40:30,928 --> 00:40:32,972 Your... What shall we call it? 836 00:40:33,055 --> 00:40:34,974 Veiled threat, that should escape 837 00:40:35,057 --> 00:40:38,144 not be possible, you would take your own life? 838 00:40:38,227 --> 00:40:40,729 TOM: The controversial nature of this story 839 00:40:40,813 --> 00:40:44,900 meant that we never thought about Broadway. 840 00:40:44,984 --> 00:40:47,444 We-- Like, how could you? 841 00:40:47,528 --> 00:40:49,113 STEVEN: Moving the show to Broadway 842 00:40:49,196 --> 00:40:52,241 seemed to make no sense. We had no advance sales. 843 00:40:52,324 --> 00:40:54,493 We were selling out a 200-seat theater, 844 00:40:54,577 --> 00:40:57,163 but how were we gonna fill a thousand seats? 845 00:40:57,246 --> 00:40:59,331 We were campaigning for that. 846 00:40:59,415 --> 00:41:01,625 "We," being, like... 847 00:41:01,709 --> 00:41:06,589 (LAUGHING) Me. And Duncan, probably. 848 00:41:06,672 --> 00:41:08,966 JOHN: They called us in early one day. 849 00:41:09,049 --> 00:41:11,927 And that certainly was like some alarms were going off, 850 00:41:12,011 --> 00:41:13,179 like, "Wait a minute, what? 851 00:41:13,262 --> 00:41:14,722 Why does Tom and Ira want to talk?" 852 00:41:14,805 --> 00:41:17,516 You know, it's like, "Are we getting in trouble for something?" 853 00:41:17,600 --> 00:41:19,602 ♪ Uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh Well, fine ♪ 854 00:41:19,685 --> 00:41:21,395 ♪ Not like it's even Worth the time ♪ 855 00:41:21,478 --> 00:41:23,147 ♪ But still, you know You wanted more... ♪ 856 00:41:23,230 --> 00:41:25,357 And they said, "We just want to tell you that, you know, 857 00:41:25,441 --> 00:41:27,693 we're gonna be moving to Broadway in the fall." 858 00:41:27,776 --> 00:41:31,655 ♪ You wanna laugh It's too absurd ♪ 859 00:41:31,739 --> 00:41:35,784 ♪ You start to ask Can't hear a word ♪ 860 00:41:35,868 --> 00:41:41,790 -♪ You're gonna crash and burn ♪ -♪ Right, tell me more ♪ 861 00:41:41,874 --> 00:41:45,920 ♪ You start to cave You start to cry ♪ 862 00:41:46,003 --> 00:41:50,090 ♪ You try to run Nowhere to hide ♪ 863 00:41:50,174 --> 00:41:55,137 ♪ You wanna crumble up And close that door ♪ 864 00:41:55,221 --> 00:41:58,557 There were tears. People were jumping for joy and shouting. 865 00:41:58,641 --> 00:42:01,518 It was totally, totally surreal. 866 00:42:01,602 --> 00:42:03,604 ♪ Just fuck it, right? Enough, that's it ♪ 867 00:42:03,687 --> 00:42:05,564 ♪ You'll still go on Well, for a bit ♪ 868 00:42:05,648 --> 00:42:08,108 ♪ Another day of utter shit ♪ 869 00:42:08,192 --> 00:42:09,902 ♪ And then there were none... ♪ 870 00:42:09,985 --> 00:42:12,112 My lifetime dream had come true. 871 00:42:13,656 --> 00:42:15,532 A thing... (SNIFFLES) ...I never thought 872 00:42:15,616 --> 00:42:17,243 could come true was coming true. 873 00:42:17,326 --> 00:42:23,791 ♪ And then there were none And then there were none ♪ 874 00:42:23,874 --> 00:42:25,084 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 875 00:42:25,167 --> 00:42:32,049 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 876 00:42:38,264 --> 00:42:39,723 LEA: We were all really afraid 877 00:42:39,807 --> 00:42:42,518 that the grandness of the Eugene O'Neill 878 00:42:42,601 --> 00:42:46,188 wouldn't be able to hold that precious... 879 00:42:46,272 --> 00:42:48,899 that it would go away, that energy. 880 00:42:52,069 --> 00:42:55,990 MICHAEL: I was really freaked out about the concept 881 00:42:56,073 --> 00:42:57,116 of moving it to Broadway. 882 00:42:57,199 --> 00:42:58,784 I thought that was a mistake, actually. 883 00:42:58,867 --> 00:43:00,619 I never thought of this as a Broadway show, 884 00:43:00,703 --> 00:43:03,205 quite frankly, but we all went into it 885 00:43:03,289 --> 00:43:06,500 with every digit crossed, and it really didn't start well. 886 00:43:06,583 --> 00:43:08,168 ♪ ("TOTALLY FUCKED" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 887 00:43:08,252 --> 00:43:10,421 JONATHAN: I was in my dressing room at the Eugene O'Neill. 888 00:43:10,504 --> 00:43:12,089 And I said, "Michael, I've never had 889 00:43:12,172 --> 00:43:13,674 a dressing room before, to myself. 890 00:43:13,757 --> 00:43:16,135 This is like-- I don't know how I'm going to decorate it." 891 00:43:16,218 --> 00:43:17,219 And he was like, "Honey, 892 00:43:17,303 --> 00:43:18,554 I wouldn't decorate this dressing room. 893 00:43:18,637 --> 00:43:20,639 I don't think we're gonna be here for very long. 894 00:43:20,723 --> 00:43:22,725 Don't get too excited." And on Broadway, 895 00:43:22,808 --> 00:43:24,685 we couldn't sell half of the house. 896 00:43:24,768 --> 00:43:26,854 ♪ There's a moment you know ♪ 897 00:43:26,937 --> 00:43:28,480 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 898 00:43:28,564 --> 00:43:29,690 ♪ You're fucked ♪ 899 00:43:31,775 --> 00:43:36,864 ♪ Not an inch more room To self-destruct ♪ 900 00:43:38,490 --> 00:43:40,659 DUNCAN: It was an 1100 seat house, 901 00:43:40,743 --> 00:43:43,579 and when we were in previews, 902 00:43:43,662 --> 00:43:46,874 we were playing to 300 people a night. 903 00:43:46,957 --> 00:43:52,129 I mean, Tom and Ira were losing money big time. 904 00:43:52,212 --> 00:43:53,422 It was a disaster. 905 00:43:53,505 --> 00:43:57,217 ♪ Man, you're fucked If you just freeze up ♪ 906 00:43:57,301 --> 00:43:59,136 ♪ Can't do that thing... ♪ 907 00:43:59,219 --> 00:44:01,930 The stage manager said, "Hey, everyone, so... 908 00:44:02,014 --> 00:44:04,391 you're gonna see a lot of purple velvet out there. 909 00:44:04,475 --> 00:44:05,768 The seats were purple velvet. 910 00:44:05,851 --> 00:44:08,145 Just remember that when you see the empty house. 911 00:44:08,228 --> 00:44:09,897 ♪ Yeah, you're fucked All right... ♪ 912 00:44:09,980 --> 00:44:12,024 We really thought we were gonna close right after we opened. 913 00:44:12,107 --> 00:44:16,195 ♪ You can kiss Your sorry ass goodbye ♪ 914 00:44:16,278 --> 00:44:19,239 ♪ Totally fucked Will they mess you up? ♪ 915 00:44:19,323 --> 00:44:23,202 ♪ Well, you know They're gonna try ♪ 916 00:44:23,285 --> 00:44:27,039 ♪ Blah, blah, blah Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 917 00:44:27,122 --> 00:44:29,833 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah Blah, blah, blah ♪ 918 00:44:29,917 --> 00:44:32,544 We spent months holding each other 919 00:44:32,628 --> 00:44:36,006 and hoping that it was gonna last. 920 00:44:36,090 --> 00:44:37,257 We opened in December. 921 00:44:37,341 --> 00:44:39,927 March came around, April came around. 922 00:44:40,010 --> 00:44:41,261 We started losing an audience, 923 00:44:41,345 --> 00:44:43,097 and it was a lot of purple velvet. 924 00:44:43,180 --> 00:44:45,682 -♪ Wanna bundle up ♪ -(AUDIENCE CHEERING) 925 00:44:45,766 --> 00:44:49,103 ♪ With some big-ass lie ♪ 926 00:44:50,521 --> 00:44:55,943 ♪ Long enough for them To watch us quit ♪ 927 00:44:57,903 --> 00:45:02,783 ♪ Long enough for you To get out of it ♪ 928 00:45:02,866 --> 00:45:04,701 MICHAEL: We didn't do real business 929 00:45:04,785 --> 00:45:08,872 until the Tony Award nominations came out. 930 00:45:08,956 --> 00:45:12,418 -(INDISTINCT CHATTER) -JONATHAN: I remember really understanding 931 00:45:12,501 --> 00:45:15,754 the purpose of the Tonys is to sell your show. 932 00:45:15,838 --> 00:45:19,883 And so, the night before the Tony nominations came out, 933 00:45:19,967 --> 00:45:23,846 Lea and I during the show, in our costumes, 934 00:45:23,929 --> 00:45:26,515 in the second act, went to the church, 935 00:45:26,598 --> 00:45:28,976 the Actors' Chapel across the street. 936 00:45:29,059 --> 00:45:30,978 LEA: And I was like, you know, 937 00:45:31,061 --> 00:45:33,647 "Please, God, please help us tomorrow 938 00:45:33,730 --> 00:45:35,983 with the Tony nominations," and blah, blah, blah. 939 00:45:36,066 --> 00:45:37,609 And the next thing you know, I look over 940 00:45:37,693 --> 00:45:39,361 and Jonathan has his wallet, 941 00:45:39,445 --> 00:45:41,822 and he takes out like a 50-dollar bill, and he places 942 00:45:41,905 --> 00:45:43,073 in the donation box. 943 00:45:43,157 --> 00:45:46,952 And I was like, "I didn't bring any money. 944 00:45:47,035 --> 00:45:48,787 You're giving money to the church?" 945 00:45:48,871 --> 00:45:52,458 And she still is so pissed that like I put more money in 946 00:45:52,541 --> 00:45:54,209 and that's what got me a Tony nomination. 947 00:45:54,293 --> 00:45:56,336 Sure enough, he got nominated and I didn't. 948 00:45:56,420 --> 00:45:58,797 Jonathan Groff, Spring Awakening. 949 00:45:58,881 --> 00:46:02,342 I leapt out of my skin. 950 00:46:02,426 --> 00:46:06,597 I couldn't believe that our show got so many nominations. 951 00:46:06,680 --> 00:46:08,390 Spring Awakening got 11 nominations. 952 00:46:08,474 --> 00:46:10,517 JOHN: The next thing I knew was just my phone vibrating, 953 00:46:10,601 --> 00:46:12,895 just text message after text message. 954 00:46:12,978 --> 00:46:16,482 -The Tonys were so crazy. -(AUDIENCE APPLAUDING) 955 00:46:16,565 --> 00:46:20,777 And the Tony Award goes to John Gallagher Jr. 956 00:46:20,861 --> 00:46:22,029 -(AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 957 00:46:22,112 --> 00:46:24,948 It was an amazing night. And it was an out of body night. 958 00:46:25,032 --> 00:46:27,367 We kept being back on stage again and again. 959 00:46:27,451 --> 00:46:30,996 -Spring Awakening, Steven Sater. -(AUDIENCE CHEERING) 960 00:46:31,079 --> 00:46:34,541 Spring Awakening, music by Duncan Sheik, lyrics Steven Sater! 961 00:46:34,625 --> 00:46:37,169 -Spring Awakening. -Spring Awakening. 962 00:46:37,252 --> 00:46:38,462 ANGELA LANSBURY: And the Tony Award 963 00:46:38,545 --> 00:46:41,715 for Best Musical, Spring Awakening. 964 00:46:41,798 --> 00:46:44,635 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 965 00:46:44,718 --> 00:46:46,011 We won eight Tonys. 966 00:46:46,094 --> 00:46:48,055 -Yes! -(AUDIENCE CHEERING) 967 00:46:48,138 --> 00:46:51,725 ♪ Yeah, you're fucked all right And all for spite ♪ 968 00:46:51,808 --> 00:46:56,063 ♪ You can kiss Your sorry ass goodbye ♪ 969 00:46:56,146 --> 00:46:59,066 ♪ Totally fucked Will it mess you up? ♪ 970 00:46:59,149 --> 00:47:03,195 ♪ Well, you know They're gonna try ♪ 971 00:47:03,278 --> 00:47:06,865 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 972 00:47:06,949 --> 00:47:10,619 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 973 00:47:10,702 --> 00:47:14,289 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 974 00:47:14,373 --> 00:47:16,083 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 975 00:47:16,166 --> 00:47:17,751 Whoo! 976 00:47:17,834 --> 00:47:21,505 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 977 00:47:21,588 --> 00:47:24,883 -♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ -(LAUGHTER) 978 00:47:24,967 --> 00:47:28,595 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 979 00:47:28,679 --> 00:47:32,599 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 980 00:47:32,683 --> 00:47:34,393 ♪ Totally fucked! ♪ 981 00:47:34,476 --> 00:47:40,440 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 982 00:47:43,527 --> 00:47:45,821 MICHAEL: Spring Awakening without the Tony Awards 983 00:47:45,904 --> 00:47:47,781 would have gone away. 984 00:47:48,699 --> 00:47:52,953 After the Tony Awards, just sold out, 985 00:47:53,036 --> 00:47:56,039 and the audience was going crazy. 986 00:47:56,123 --> 00:47:59,418 It was so intense. (CHUCKLES) It was so crazy. 987 00:47:59,501 --> 00:48:01,169 People screaming and shouting. 988 00:48:01,253 --> 00:48:03,630 LEA: We became one of those Broadway shows 989 00:48:03,714 --> 00:48:06,800 that people became really obsessed with. 990 00:48:06,884 --> 00:48:08,051 We became rock stars. 991 00:48:08,135 --> 00:48:10,804 From one of Broadway's most talked-about new musicals, 992 00:48:10,887 --> 00:48:13,682 please welcome the cast of Spring Awakening. 993 00:48:13,765 --> 00:48:15,642 (AUDIENCE APPLAUDING) 994 00:48:15,726 --> 00:48:18,145 ♪ ("THE BITCH OF LIVING" PLAYING) ♪ 995 00:48:18,228 --> 00:48:20,063 ♪ God, I dreamed There was an angel ♪ 996 00:48:20,147 --> 00:48:22,065 ♪ Who could hear me Through the wall ♪ 997 00:48:22,149 --> 00:48:23,942 I was like, "Oh, okay. 998 00:48:24,026 --> 00:48:26,612 I guess it's a hit. I guess it's a rave." 999 00:48:26,695 --> 00:48:27,696 It was just incredible. 1000 00:48:27,779 --> 00:48:30,365 We had these massive stage door experiences 1001 00:48:30,449 --> 00:48:33,285 where we would have just like fans lined the block. 1002 00:48:33,368 --> 00:48:36,204 The thing I remember the most was the kind of thankfulness 1003 00:48:36,288 --> 00:48:38,874 that these kids had for us every night. 1004 00:48:38,957 --> 00:48:41,335 I had people telling me like, "I relate to Moritz, 1005 00:48:41,418 --> 00:48:42,669 I go through the same thing." 1006 00:48:42,753 --> 00:48:45,505 And me being able to say, "Guess what? I did too." 1007 00:48:45,589 --> 00:48:47,382 People wanted my hair. 1008 00:48:47,466 --> 00:48:48,884 They wanted to sit in the front row 1009 00:48:48,967 --> 00:48:51,178 so that they could get spit on by Jonathan Groff. 1010 00:48:51,261 --> 00:48:54,598 I was spitting in programs, and there was like... 1011 00:48:54,681 --> 00:48:58,185 people giving us dolls and people... 1012 00:48:58,268 --> 00:49:02,648 giving us like portraits, painted portraits of ourselves. 1013 00:49:02,731 --> 00:49:04,691 -It was crazy. -(AUDIENCE CHEERING) 1014 00:49:04,775 --> 00:49:07,402 From the hit Broadway show, Spring Awakening... 1015 00:49:07,486 --> 00:49:10,072 ...to the cast of the Broadway smash hit, Spring Awakening. 1016 00:49:10,155 --> 00:49:11,782 ROSIE O'DONNELL: This little boy, Jonathan. 1017 00:49:11,865 --> 00:49:12,824 (CHUCKLES) 1018 00:49:12,908 --> 00:49:15,285 I think you're a young Tom Hanks who can sing. 1019 00:49:15,369 --> 00:49:18,121 Puberty, masturbation, sadomasochism... 1020 00:49:18,205 --> 00:49:19,373 It's definitely a thrill. 1021 00:49:19,456 --> 00:49:20,957 How long have you been working on this project? 1022 00:49:21,041 --> 00:49:22,459 I've been working on Spring Awakening now 1023 00:49:22,542 --> 00:49:24,169 -for seven years. -For seven years! 1024 00:49:24,252 --> 00:49:26,088 -ANCHOR 1: I like it a lot. -ANCHOR 2: Can I-- 1025 00:49:26,171 --> 00:49:27,798 -Oh, yeah. Absolutely, please. -(AUDIENCE LAUGHS) 1026 00:49:27,881 --> 00:49:29,925 Spring Awakening takeover starts... 1027 00:49:30,008 --> 00:49:31,343 ALL: Right now! 1028 00:49:31,426 --> 00:49:34,721 -Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah -Blah, blah, blah, blah 1029 00:49:34,805 --> 00:49:36,223 By December of the next year, 1030 00:49:36,306 --> 00:49:39,017 we're all in this national GAP ad 1031 00:49:39,101 --> 00:49:40,894 in the middle of fucking Times Square. 1032 00:49:40,977 --> 00:49:42,646 It was just like, what is happening? 1033 00:49:42,729 --> 00:49:43,814 What is going on? 1034 00:49:46,441 --> 00:49:50,362 -(AUDIENCE CHEERING) -MICHAEL: It was a hit. 1035 00:49:50,445 --> 00:49:54,783 And I was like, "Oh, shit, now I have to stay and do more." 1036 00:50:00,747 --> 00:50:02,207 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 1037 00:50:02,290 --> 00:50:04,710 Like, the first couple of times we had a full audience, 1038 00:50:04,793 --> 00:50:07,587 I just found it so disarming. 1039 00:50:07,671 --> 00:50:10,048 JONATHAN: Peter McManus Café was the place 1040 00:50:10,132 --> 00:50:15,262 that we used to go to after the show and get loaded. 1041 00:50:15,345 --> 00:50:17,264 And I was like, "Wait a minute." 1042 00:50:17,347 --> 00:50:19,349 GIDEON GLICK: Spring Awakening brought me to New York. 1043 00:50:19,433 --> 00:50:21,977 It opened, like, all the doors. 1044 00:50:22,060 --> 00:50:25,897 At the time I didn't really understand what it was. 1045 00:50:25,981 --> 00:50:27,274 But looking back, 1046 00:50:27,357 --> 00:50:29,359 it was completely transformative. 1047 00:50:29,443 --> 00:50:31,361 She's on a show that Gideon's on now. 1048 00:50:31,445 --> 00:50:34,740 I look back on Spring Awakening all these years later 1049 00:50:34,823 --> 00:50:36,658 with such a fondness. 1050 00:50:36,742 --> 00:50:39,953 It was such a formidable time in all of our careers and lives. 1051 00:50:40,036 --> 00:50:41,121 Oh yeah, that was opening night. 1052 00:50:41,204 --> 00:50:42,789 Opening night, chipped his tooth on the microphone. 1053 00:50:42,873 --> 00:50:44,791 To be an adult and revisit this material, 1054 00:50:44,875 --> 00:50:46,793 it's so special. And actually it means 1055 00:50:46,877 --> 00:50:49,254 so much more now than it did then. 1056 00:50:49,337 --> 00:50:51,548 I had my Spring Awakening during the show. 1057 00:50:51,631 --> 00:50:55,177 Like, I really learned so much about my own body 1058 00:50:55,260 --> 00:50:59,264 and about my sexuality through the entire experience. 1059 00:50:59,347 --> 00:51:01,975 I never really felt self-conscious 1060 00:51:02,058 --> 00:51:03,602 about my body after that. 1061 00:51:03,685 --> 00:51:06,980 Whenever I see the show, like, part of the thing that kills me 1062 00:51:07,063 --> 00:51:08,106 so much is like, 1063 00:51:08,190 --> 00:51:10,650 even though you're doing that dark shit, 1064 00:51:10,734 --> 00:51:12,277 there's still like at the end of the show, 1065 00:51:12,360 --> 00:51:15,405 this, like, hopefulness. It ends on this, like, thing 1066 00:51:15,489 --> 00:51:18,033 that you have when you're young 1067 00:51:18,116 --> 00:51:21,286 that we had 15 years ago that we don't have now. 1068 00:51:21,369 --> 00:51:23,079 It's like when you see seven-year-olds skiing 1069 00:51:23,163 --> 00:51:24,331 down a hill fearless. 1070 00:51:24,414 --> 00:51:25,540 Exactly, yes. 1071 00:51:25,624 --> 00:51:29,294 JOHN: If I got offered a part with this arc today, 1072 00:51:29,377 --> 00:51:31,004 I might pass just because I might think, 1073 00:51:31,087 --> 00:51:33,173 -I don't know if I can... -LILLI: Sustain it? 1074 00:51:33,256 --> 00:51:35,342 ...go through that every night. You know? But at the time 1075 00:51:35,425 --> 00:51:37,511 I didn't-- I really didn't see it that way. 1076 00:51:37,594 --> 00:51:39,888 ♪ ("DON'T DO SADNESS" PLAYING) ♪ 1077 00:51:39,971 --> 00:51:42,724 ♪ Awful sweet To be a little butterfly ♪ 1078 00:51:42,808 --> 00:51:44,643 Moritz starts flunking out of his grade 1079 00:51:44,726 --> 00:51:48,021 and his dad makes it quite clear that he will be entirely shunned 1080 00:51:48,104 --> 00:51:50,649 by his family if he can't get his grades up. 1081 00:51:50,732 --> 00:51:56,988 ♪ Nothing going, going wild In you, you know ♪ 1082 00:51:57,072 --> 00:52:00,617 ♪ You're slowing By the riverside... ♪ 1083 00:52:00,700 --> 00:52:02,244 JOHN: It's a breaking point for Moritz. 1084 00:52:02,327 --> 00:52:04,996 And he thinks, "I don't see any way out of this." 1085 00:52:05,080 --> 00:52:10,669 ♪ Or maybe cool to be A little summer wind... ♪ 1086 00:52:10,752 --> 00:52:13,296 JOHN: I've always really related to Moritz. 1087 00:52:13,380 --> 00:52:17,342 I don't know if it was undiagnosed ADD or what, 1088 00:52:17,425 --> 00:52:19,511 but I struggled at school. 1089 00:52:19,594 --> 00:52:22,514 (CHUCKLING) And I struggle with anxiety 1090 00:52:22,597 --> 00:52:24,933 and depression as much as anybody. 1091 00:52:25,016 --> 00:52:29,354 And in a sense, every night was a chance for me to say, 1092 00:52:29,437 --> 00:52:31,773 "It does get better. It does get easier. 1093 00:52:31,857 --> 00:52:33,316 You know, if you can hang in there." 1094 00:52:33,400 --> 00:52:34,442 ♪ 'Cause you know ♪ 1095 00:52:34,526 --> 00:52:36,027 ♪ (MUSIC INTENSIFIES) ♪ 1096 00:52:36,111 --> 00:52:42,284 ♪ I don't do sadness Not even a little bit ♪ 1097 00:52:43,743 --> 00:52:49,291 ♪ Just don't need it in my life I don't want any part of it ♪ 1098 00:52:50,709 --> 00:52:54,588 ♪ I don't do sadness ♪ 1099 00:52:54,671 --> 00:52:57,007 ♪ Hey, I've done my time ♪ 1100 00:52:57,090 --> 00:53:01,636 ♪ Looking back on it all Man, it blows my mind ♪ 1101 00:53:01,720 --> 00:53:05,849 ♪ 'Cause I don't do sadness I've so been there ♪ 1102 00:53:05,932 --> 00:53:12,230 ♪ Don't do sadness I just don't care ♪ 1103 00:53:13,481 --> 00:53:17,152 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 1104 00:53:17,235 --> 00:53:20,196 -Moritz Stiefel? -MORITZ: Oh, Ilse! (CHUCKLES) 1105 00:53:21,364 --> 00:53:22,574 You frightened me. 1106 00:53:23,533 --> 00:53:24,534 Did you lose something? 1107 00:53:24,618 --> 00:53:27,579 Why did you frighten me? Damn it! (CHUCKLES) 1108 00:53:27,662 --> 00:53:30,373 JOHN: His friend Ilse, who has been shunned 1109 00:53:30,457 --> 00:53:34,044 by the community, offers this life raft 1110 00:53:34,127 --> 00:53:36,379 of saying, like, "Come with me, it's not that bad," 1111 00:53:36,463 --> 00:53:38,298 like, "We could find our way together." 1112 00:53:38,381 --> 00:53:40,467 ♪ ("BLUE WIND" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 1113 00:53:40,550 --> 00:53:43,261 ♪ Spring and summer ♪ 1114 00:53:43,345 --> 00:53:47,641 ♪ Every other day ♪ 1115 00:53:47,724 --> 00:53:51,311 ♪ Blue wind gets so sad ♪ 1116 00:53:51,394 --> 00:53:54,105 ♪ Blowing through The thick corn ♪ 1117 00:53:54,189 --> 00:53:56,608 ♪ Through the bales of hay ♪ 1118 00:53:56,691 --> 00:54:00,278 ♪ Through the open books On the grass ♪ 1119 00:54:01,404 --> 00:54:05,659 ♪ Spring and summer ♪ 1120 00:54:08,370 --> 00:54:12,666 ♪ Sure, when it's autumn ♪ 1121 00:54:12,749 --> 00:54:19,464 ♪ Wind always wants to Creep up and haunt you... ♪ 1122 00:54:19,547 --> 00:54:22,258 She was saying, "This is life. 1123 00:54:22,342 --> 00:54:24,678 This is just life, this is where we are. 1124 00:54:24,761 --> 00:54:26,471 Some days it's hard 1125 00:54:26,554 --> 00:54:28,181 and some days it's really beautiful. 1126 00:54:28,264 --> 00:54:30,558 This one's harder than the other ones. 1127 00:54:30,642 --> 00:54:33,395 But this is just another-- It's just another day, 1128 00:54:33,478 --> 00:54:35,647 I promise. It'll be fine." 1129 00:54:35,730 --> 00:54:38,984 And he's like, "No. I don't do the autumn. 1130 00:54:39,067 --> 00:54:40,318 I don't do it at all. 1131 00:54:40,402 --> 00:54:42,487 I'm not doing it. I don't wanna do it." 1132 00:54:42,570 --> 00:54:45,490 -♪ 'Cause you know ♪ -♪ Spring and summer ♪ 1133 00:54:45,573 --> 00:54:48,994 -♪ I don't do sadness ♪ -♪ Every other day ♪ 1134 00:54:49,077 --> 00:54:52,539 -♪ Not even a little bit ♪ -♪ Blue wind gets so lost ♪ 1135 00:54:52,622 --> 00:54:56,710 -♪ I don't need it in my life ♪ -♪ Through the thick corn Through the bales of hay ♪ 1136 00:54:56,793 --> 00:55:00,171 -♪ I don't want any part of it ♪ -♪ Spring and summer ♪ 1137 00:55:00,255 --> 00:55:03,842 -♪ I don't do sadness ♪ -♪ Every other day ♪ 1138 00:55:03,925 --> 00:55:06,636 -♪ Hey, I've done my time ♪ -♪ Blue wind gets so lost ♪ 1139 00:55:06,720 --> 00:55:10,015 -♪ Looking back on it all Man, it blows my mind ♪ -♪ Blowin' through thick corn ♪ 1140 00:55:10,098 --> 00:55:12,308 -♪ And the bales of hay ♪ -♪ I don't do sadness ♪ 1141 00:55:12,392 --> 00:55:14,978 -♪ So been there ♪ -♪ Through the Wandering clouds of dust ♪ 1142 00:55:15,061 --> 00:55:16,229 ♪ I don't do sadness... ♪ 1143 00:55:16,312 --> 00:55:22,318 -♪ Spring and summer ♪ -♪ I just don't care ♪ 1144 00:55:23,111 --> 00:55:29,993 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 1145 00:55:30,827 --> 00:55:33,496 ♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES QUIETLY) ♪ 1146 00:55:34,289 --> 00:55:35,749 Good night, Ilse. 1147 00:55:37,125 --> 00:55:38,293 Good night? 1148 00:55:40,003 --> 00:55:41,880 Well, walk me, at least. 1149 00:55:43,131 --> 00:55:46,885 Honestly... I wish I could. 1150 00:55:48,011 --> 00:55:50,597 JOHN: He has this missed connection with Ilse. 1151 00:55:50,680 --> 00:55:53,099 That's the final straw for him, is that 1152 00:55:53,183 --> 00:55:55,935 "Ugh, I had this opportunity, I missed it." 1153 00:55:56,019 --> 00:55:59,606 And he looks out at that one last sunset. 1154 00:55:59,689 --> 00:56:03,109 Ten minutes ago, you could see the entire horizon. 1155 00:56:06,237 --> 00:56:07,238 Now... 1156 00:56:09,074 --> 00:56:10,658 only the dusk. 1157 00:56:14,788 --> 00:56:16,498 The first few stars. 1158 00:56:17,832 --> 00:56:19,751 JOHN: The tragedy of Moritz is that 1159 00:56:19,834 --> 00:56:23,046 had he just been shown a little more love... 1160 00:56:24,089 --> 00:56:26,549 But he totally succumbs to 1161 00:56:26,633 --> 00:56:28,176 his fears of failing, 1162 00:56:28,259 --> 00:56:31,346 and he doesn't see any other way out. 1163 00:56:34,974 --> 00:56:36,101 It's so dark. 1164 00:56:37,143 --> 00:56:40,146 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 1165 00:56:47,737 --> 00:56:48,738 So dark. 1166 00:56:49,489 --> 00:56:52,617 ♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 1167 00:56:52,700 --> 00:56:54,828 For John Gallagher, to fucking commit suicide 1168 00:56:54,911 --> 00:56:56,412 every night, like it's just brutal. 1169 00:56:56,496 --> 00:57:00,625 It's hard. It's hard to play that role. 1170 00:57:00,708 --> 00:57:04,420 And do it with such grace and strength, 1171 00:57:04,504 --> 00:57:06,673 and he just did it. 1172 00:57:06,756 --> 00:57:09,509 He did it effortlessly, every day. 1173 00:57:09,592 --> 00:57:12,011 There would be a night where I would, you know, 1174 00:57:12,095 --> 00:57:14,514 cock the prop gun and put it in my mouth 1175 00:57:14,597 --> 00:57:16,850 and the lights would go out and I would go off stage 1176 00:57:16,933 --> 00:57:19,853 and just start sobbing and you know, 1177 00:57:19,936 --> 00:57:22,355 and collapse into Danny Paul's arms, 1178 00:57:22,438 --> 00:57:23,648 my dresser, you know. 1179 00:57:23,731 --> 00:57:26,151 And just cry in the dark while, you know, 1180 00:57:26,234 --> 00:57:29,028 the beginning of "Left Behind" was happening. 1181 00:57:29,112 --> 00:57:30,989 And then I would hear you start singing. 1182 00:57:31,072 --> 00:57:32,824 ♪ ("LEFT BEHIND" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 1183 00:57:32,907 --> 00:57:34,742 ♪ You fold his hands And smooth his tie ♪ 1184 00:57:34,826 --> 00:57:36,995 ♪ You gently lift his chin ♪ 1185 00:57:37,078 --> 00:57:38,997 ♪ Were you really so blind... ♪ 1186 00:57:39,080 --> 00:57:42,500 STEVEN: Moritz has taken his life. His father's standing at the grave. 1187 00:57:42,584 --> 00:57:47,088 And Melchior articulates what a parent might feel 1188 00:57:47,172 --> 00:57:48,548 in losing a child. 1189 00:57:48,631 --> 00:57:51,342 ♪ Now to close his eyes ♪ 1190 00:57:51,426 --> 00:57:54,387 ♪ Never open them ♪ 1191 00:57:54,470 --> 00:57:57,140 ♪ A shadow passed A shadow passed ♪ 1192 00:57:57,223 --> 00:57:58,183 ♪ Yearning... ♪ 1193 00:57:58,266 --> 00:57:59,517 STEVEN: No matter how old you are, 1194 00:57:59,601 --> 00:58:00,852 you watch Spring Awakening 1195 00:58:00,935 --> 00:58:02,645 from the point of view of the children. 1196 00:58:02,729 --> 00:58:04,564 And then you see the parents and you think, 1197 00:58:04,647 --> 00:58:07,025 "Oh, wait, that's me." 1198 00:58:07,108 --> 00:58:09,402 Then you get to reflect on your own behavior. 1199 00:58:09,485 --> 00:58:14,991 ♪ The talks you never had The Saturdays you never spent ♪ 1200 00:58:15,074 --> 00:58:20,663 ♪ All the grown-up places You never went ♪ 1201 00:58:20,747 --> 00:58:26,169 ♪ And all of the crying You wouldn't understand ♪ 1202 00:58:26,252 --> 00:58:32,383 ♪ You just let him cry Make a man out of him ♪ 1203 00:58:32,467 --> 00:58:35,053 I knew that we were helping children 1204 00:58:35,136 --> 00:58:37,263 who were coming to see the show. 1205 00:58:37,347 --> 00:58:39,182 I know that there were boys in the audience 1206 00:58:39,265 --> 00:58:41,267 who felt like Moritz, 1207 00:58:41,351 --> 00:58:46,898 or Ernst and Hanschen in their hidden love, or... 1208 00:58:46,981 --> 00:58:51,194 struggling with depression, thoughts of suicide. 1209 00:58:51,277 --> 00:58:53,821 JONATHAN: This material saves lives. 1210 00:58:53,905 --> 00:58:56,741 Some girl wrote John Gallagher and said, 1211 00:58:56,824 --> 00:59:00,328 "I didn't kill myself because of your character 1212 00:59:00,411 --> 00:59:01,663 in the show." 1213 00:59:01,746 --> 00:59:03,957 LAUREN: Lilli and I, we would get messages 1214 00:59:04,040 --> 00:59:06,960 from young women that were like, "I've never told anyone this, 1215 00:59:07,043 --> 00:59:08,586 but I've been molested." 1216 00:59:10,129 --> 00:59:14,300 I mean, lots of letters. 1217 00:59:14,384 --> 00:59:17,971 I think that's kind of what got us through it every night. 1218 00:59:18,054 --> 00:59:21,015 Knowing how important it was to tell that story. 1219 00:59:21,099 --> 00:59:26,813 ♪ Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh ♪ 1220 00:59:26,896 --> 00:59:32,443 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 1221 00:59:32,527 --> 00:59:35,613 ♪ A shadow passed A shadow passed ♪ 1222 00:59:35,697 --> 00:59:39,200 ♪ Yearning, yearning For the fool... ♪ 1223 00:59:39,284 --> 00:59:43,496 LEA: But I think our hope was to also make every parent 1224 00:59:43,579 --> 00:59:46,958 in the audience know what will happen 1225 00:59:47,041 --> 00:59:49,335 when you do not talk to your children 1226 00:59:49,419 --> 00:59:52,880 or let them be truly who they are meant to be. 1227 00:59:52,964 --> 00:59:58,469 ♪ And it whistles through The ghost ♪ 1228 00:59:58,553 --> 01:00:04,851 ♪ Still left behind ♪ 1229 01:00:04,934 --> 01:00:06,352 ♪ It whistles through... ♪ 1230 01:00:06,436 --> 01:00:09,439 LEA: I have a son, and hearing "Left Behind," 1231 01:00:09,522 --> 01:00:14,319 you know, I just can't even imagine not being, 1232 01:00:14,402 --> 01:00:17,363 like, being there for my son like that or that he would ever 1233 01:00:17,447 --> 01:00:19,824 feel that kind of pain. (SNIFFLES) 1234 01:00:19,907 --> 01:00:23,244 It was-- That was very, very, very overwhelming for me... 1235 01:00:23,328 --> 01:00:25,413 (INHALES) ...that storyline. 1236 01:00:28,374 --> 01:00:32,295 ♪ Oh ♪ 1237 01:00:36,966 --> 01:00:40,803 (AUDIENCE APPLAUDING, CHEERING) 1238 01:00:40,887 --> 01:00:43,556 LEA: Moritz's storyline was always a challenge 1239 01:00:43,639 --> 01:00:48,227 for all of us emotionally, and so we had to... 1240 01:00:48,311 --> 01:00:51,147 have an escape outside of playing these characters 1241 01:00:51,230 --> 01:00:53,358 and this intense subject matter. 1242 01:00:53,441 --> 01:00:58,029 We, of course, loved our show and loved playing our characters 1243 01:00:58,112 --> 01:00:59,113 but, like, 1244 01:00:59,197 --> 01:01:02,825 the real fun we had was offstage, together. 1245 01:01:02,909 --> 01:01:04,202 JULIE GROFF: They're coming out slowly 1246 01:01:04,285 --> 01:01:05,870 because they were up all night. 1247 01:01:05,953 --> 01:01:08,498 -(CHEERS) -JOHN: While we were on Broadway, 1248 01:01:08,581 --> 01:01:12,668 Jonathan Groff's mom picked us up in a school bus, 1249 01:01:12,752 --> 01:01:14,962 drove us down to Lancaster, Pennsylvania, 1250 01:01:15,046 --> 01:01:18,883 where John is from, and we had a campout. 1251 01:01:18,966 --> 01:01:21,219 -JULIE: We're home! -We're home! 1252 01:01:21,302 --> 01:01:25,640 The whole cast came to my family's farm in Pennsylvania. 1253 01:01:25,723 --> 01:01:27,016 JIM GROFF: What's your name? 1254 01:01:27,100 --> 01:01:29,352 -How ya doing? Good to meet you. -Good. How are you? 1255 01:01:29,435 --> 01:01:30,728 -Robby! -JULIE: Robby! 1256 01:01:30,812 --> 01:01:33,815 JONATHAN: And we slept out in tents. 1257 01:01:33,898 --> 01:01:38,236 Oh, my God, the farm was the worst time of my whole life. 1258 01:01:38,319 --> 01:01:42,323 I'm just not meant to sleep in a tent 1259 01:01:42,407 --> 01:01:43,950 with no bathroom. 1260 01:01:44,033 --> 01:01:48,830 I was like, "I have to just truly make Julie Groff believe 1261 01:01:48,913 --> 01:01:51,207 that I'm Jonathan's girlfriend, because if I do, she'll give me 1262 01:01:51,290 --> 01:01:52,750 an extra pillow and a blanket." 1263 01:01:52,834 --> 01:01:54,043 (INDISTINCT CLAMORING) 1264 01:01:54,127 --> 01:01:57,296 JOHN: We all ran outside, totally wild. 1265 01:01:57,380 --> 01:01:59,298 There was like a demolition derby car there 1266 01:01:59,382 --> 01:02:02,301 for some reason that we were all driving around in. 1267 01:02:02,385 --> 01:02:04,470 (ALL CHEERING) 1268 01:02:04,554 --> 01:02:07,473 And we had a bonfire, and we went swimming. 1269 01:02:07,557 --> 01:02:10,143 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 1270 01:02:10,226 --> 01:02:12,311 LEA: One night, I woke up in the middle of the night 1271 01:02:12,395 --> 01:02:13,604 and I open up the tent, 1272 01:02:13,688 --> 01:02:17,442 and there is Gallagher and Jonathan butt naked. 1273 01:02:17,525 --> 01:02:21,446 I, like, quickly was like this to like block out their penises. 1274 01:02:21,529 --> 01:02:24,198 They were, like, so pale. I always tell Gallagher 1275 01:02:24,282 --> 01:02:26,284 that he was like glowing in the dark. 1276 01:02:26,367 --> 01:02:28,411 JOHN: She's like, "You were translucent..." 1277 01:02:28,494 --> 01:02:31,664 (LAUGHING) ...is the way that she describes 1278 01:02:31,747 --> 01:02:33,541 my scrawny nudity. 1279 01:02:33,624 --> 01:02:34,584 (CHUCKLES) 1280 01:02:34,667 --> 01:02:36,002 ♪ ("MY JUNK" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 1281 01:02:36,085 --> 01:02:37,462 JOHN: It was like a victory lap. 1282 01:02:37,545 --> 01:02:39,505 It was the end of summer, fall was about to start. 1283 01:02:39,589 --> 01:02:41,340 Gideon was leaving. We didn't really know like, 1284 01:02:41,424 --> 01:02:43,926 what a-- what do cast changes mean for this thing, you know? 1285 01:02:44,010 --> 01:02:46,721 So, I just remember that that was like the ultimate 1286 01:02:46,804 --> 01:02:47,930 kind of steam valve. 1287 01:02:48,014 --> 01:02:49,474 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 1288 01:02:49,557 --> 01:02:51,058 JONATHAN B. WRIGHT: We had a lot of fun, 1289 01:02:51,142 --> 01:02:52,435 maybe too much fun, 1290 01:02:52,518 --> 01:02:56,439 camaraderie that we shared and just the time that we had 1291 01:02:56,522 --> 01:02:58,065 it was a blast. (INHALES) 1292 01:02:58,149 --> 01:03:01,194 Ah, I look back on it really fondly. 1293 01:03:01,277 --> 01:03:05,031 ♪ Well, you have to excuse me I know it's so off ♪ 1294 01:03:05,114 --> 01:03:08,993 ♪ I love when you do stuff That's rude and so wrong ♪ 1295 01:03:09,076 --> 01:03:12,997 ♪ I go to my room Turn the stereo on ♪ 1296 01:03:13,080 --> 01:03:16,501 ♪ Shoot up some you In the "you" of some song ♪ 1297 01:03:16,584 --> 01:03:20,755 ♪ I lie back just driftin' And play out these scenes ♪ 1298 01:03:20,838 --> 01:03:24,884 ♪ I ride on the rush All the hopes and the dreams ♪ 1299 01:03:24,967 --> 01:03:27,678 ♪ I may be neglecting the things I should do ♪ 1300 01:03:27,762 --> 01:03:31,849 -♪ We've all got our junk ♪ -♪ And my junk is you ♪ 1301 01:03:31,933 --> 01:03:33,142 ♪ Yes, yes! ♪ 1302 01:03:33,226 --> 01:03:36,854 CHORUS: ♪ See we still Keep talkin' after you're gone ♪ 1303 01:03:36,938 --> 01:03:40,358 ♪ You're still with me Then feels so good in my arms ♪ 1304 01:03:40,441 --> 01:03:45,905 ♪ They say you go blind Stop, maybe it's true ♪ 1305 01:03:45,988 --> 01:03:48,699 ♪ We've got our junk, yeah Our junk, and my junk is you ♪ 1306 01:03:48,783 --> 01:03:54,622 -♪ We've all got our junk ♪ -♪ And my junk is you ♪ 1307 01:03:54,705 --> 01:03:57,917 ♪ My junk is you ♪ 1308 01:03:58,584 --> 01:04:00,086 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 1309 01:04:00,169 --> 01:04:01,712 There's just like the best memories. 1310 01:04:01,796 --> 01:04:03,089 -(AUDIENCE CHEERING) -Truly. (LAUGHS) 1311 01:04:03,172 --> 01:04:04,423 This is Lea Michele. 1312 01:04:04,507 --> 01:04:05,550 -Hi! -She plays Wendla 1313 01:04:05,633 --> 01:04:06,842 -in Spring Awakening. -You're catching me 1314 01:04:06,926 --> 01:04:08,636 before I put my wig cap on, which is really good. 1315 01:04:08,719 --> 01:04:09,762 -Which is good... -(LAUGHS) 1316 01:04:09,845 --> 01:04:11,097 -...because you're beautiful. -(LAUGHS) 1317 01:04:11,180 --> 01:04:12,932 You're beautiful with or without your wig cap on. 1318 01:04:13,015 --> 01:04:13,849 LEA: Thanks. 1319 01:04:13,933 --> 01:04:15,977 We felt like just the coolest kids 1320 01:04:16,060 --> 01:04:18,938 -on the block. -(CHUCKLES) Oh, look who it is. 1321 01:04:19,021 --> 01:04:21,691 -Oh, look. -This is Skylar. 1322 01:04:21,774 --> 01:04:22,817 Now, how do you get your hair 1323 01:04:22,900 --> 01:04:24,527 to curl like it does in the show? 1324 01:04:24,610 --> 01:04:27,071 Why, I'll tell you, Jonathan. Rat tail comb. 1325 01:04:27,154 --> 01:04:28,614 Part it perfectly in the center. 1326 01:04:28,698 --> 01:04:30,741 Two different kinds of hairsprays. 1327 01:04:30,825 --> 01:04:33,077 JONATHAN: Having each other was the most meaningful thing. 1328 01:04:33,160 --> 01:04:35,204 This actually is one of my favorite pictures 1329 01:04:35,288 --> 01:04:36,163 of the cast. 1330 01:04:36,247 --> 01:04:37,540 JONATHAN: The success of the show, 1331 01:04:37,623 --> 01:04:39,125 it never went to our heads. 1332 01:04:39,208 --> 01:04:42,086 JONATHAN: Over here is a picture of Amish country 1333 01:04:42,169 --> 01:04:43,921 for me to remember my roots. 1334 01:04:44,005 --> 01:04:46,632 JOHN: We all kind of cherished that summer. 1335 01:04:46,716 --> 01:04:49,218 It was really special. And we were all so close. 1336 01:04:49,302 --> 01:04:50,928 Oh, look at you with your guitar. 1337 01:04:51,012 --> 01:04:52,138 Here we are, just happened 1338 01:04:52,221 --> 01:04:54,181 to be here sitting there waiting for some company. 1339 01:04:54,265 --> 01:04:56,809 So, what part of like the pre-show process 1340 01:04:56,892 --> 01:04:57,893 are you at right now? 1341 01:04:57,977 --> 01:05:00,563 Right now, I'm in the slacking off process, 1342 01:05:00,646 --> 01:05:02,023 -which is where it's, uh... -(JONATHAN LAUGHS) 1343 01:05:02,106 --> 01:05:04,108 We're coming up on 7:30, which is our half hour. 1344 01:05:04,191 --> 01:05:06,819 JOHN: I was one of the older cast members. 1345 01:05:06,902 --> 01:05:08,696 I was the first of the three leads 1346 01:05:08,779 --> 01:05:10,489 to leave the show. I did it for a year 1347 01:05:10,573 --> 01:05:13,784 on Broadway and in December of 2007 1348 01:05:13,868 --> 01:05:16,412 I had my final show coming up. 1349 01:05:17,121 --> 01:05:18,581 So, we devised a plan, 1350 01:05:18,664 --> 01:05:20,124 I don't remember if it was Lea's idea, 1351 01:05:20,207 --> 01:05:21,459 or it was Jonathan Groff's idea. 1352 01:05:21,542 --> 01:05:23,669 But what we're gonna do is we're gonna sneak 1353 01:05:23,753 --> 01:05:26,339 into the theater and have a sleepover. 1354 01:05:26,422 --> 01:05:31,052 I can't express to you how illegal and unheard of 1355 01:05:31,135 --> 01:05:33,179 it is to sleep over at a theater. 1356 01:05:33,262 --> 01:05:35,348 There was gonna be no light. We brought candles, 1357 01:05:35,431 --> 01:05:38,059 we brought alcohol, we brought food. 1358 01:05:38,142 --> 01:05:40,603 JOHN: At the end of the night, there's a doorman that checks 1359 01:05:40,686 --> 01:05:42,897 every dressing room to make sure that they're empty. 1360 01:05:42,980 --> 01:05:44,315 LEA: We had to hide under the desk 1361 01:05:44,398 --> 01:05:45,900 for about two hours. 1362 01:05:45,983 --> 01:05:48,527 We all peed our pants. We got so scared. 1363 01:05:48,611 --> 01:05:51,197 And then we heard the front door just... 1364 01:05:51,280 --> 01:05:54,659 and the power went... (EXHALES) ...boom. 1365 01:05:54,742 --> 01:05:58,663 JOHN: We just went wild. We ran out onto the stage. 1366 01:05:58,746 --> 01:06:01,499 JONATHAN: And we put out a picnic on the stage. 1367 01:06:01,582 --> 01:06:02,792 We had wine. 1368 01:06:02,875 --> 01:06:07,296 We told our biggest secrets and stayed up all night long. 1369 01:06:07,380 --> 01:06:10,299 JONATHAN: I really remember Lea saying, 1370 01:06:10,383 --> 01:06:15,429 she was like, "I would give up this... whole experience 1371 01:06:15,513 --> 01:06:18,683 for this connection that we have." 1372 01:06:18,766 --> 01:06:21,977 I told him I would take it all back just to know you, 1373 01:06:22,061 --> 01:06:24,689 just to have you in my life. 1374 01:06:24,772 --> 01:06:28,067 JONATHAN: For her to say that has always stuck with me 1375 01:06:28,150 --> 01:06:31,987 and we've always had each other's backs. 1376 01:06:32,071 --> 01:06:34,573 CHRISTINE: Wendla, what have you done? 1377 01:06:35,449 --> 01:06:38,369 -Wendla! -I... I don't know. 1378 01:06:38,452 --> 01:06:40,037 You're going to have a child. 1379 01:06:40,871 --> 01:06:42,707 A child? 1380 01:06:42,790 --> 01:06:45,042 -But I am not married. -Precisely. 1381 01:06:45,126 --> 01:06:47,878 LEA: Getting to play Wendla for all those years 1382 01:06:47,962 --> 01:06:51,298 was emotionally and physically exhausting. 1383 01:06:51,382 --> 01:06:54,927 (INHALES) Why didn't you tell me everything? 1384 01:06:56,470 --> 01:07:00,683 In Act One, the beating scene was so hard. 1385 01:07:00,766 --> 01:07:03,853 My entire life, I've never felt... 1386 01:07:03,936 --> 01:07:05,020 -What? -...anything! 1387 01:07:05,104 --> 01:07:07,690 Wendla asks Melchior to beat her. 1388 01:07:07,773 --> 01:07:09,525 How can you even want a thing like that? 1389 01:07:09,608 --> 01:07:11,777 Please, Melchior? 1390 01:07:11,861 --> 01:07:14,238 LEA: She only just is getting closer and closer 1391 01:07:14,321 --> 01:07:16,449 and closer to... 1392 01:07:16,532 --> 01:07:20,536 feeling something, which is all she wants. 1393 01:07:20,619 --> 01:07:21,620 Please. 1394 01:07:23,164 --> 01:07:25,666 I'll teach you to say "please." (GRUNTS) 1395 01:07:25,750 --> 01:07:29,211 I got beaten every day and sometimes twice. 1396 01:07:29,295 --> 01:07:30,337 (CHUCKLES) 1397 01:07:30,421 --> 01:07:32,631 You're barely stroking me. 1398 01:07:33,382 --> 01:07:34,633 -How's that then? -(GROANS) 1399 01:07:34,717 --> 01:07:38,137 -I really didn't enjoy it. -How's that? 1400 01:07:38,220 --> 01:07:39,472 -Nothing! (GRUNTS) -You bitch, 1401 01:07:39,555 --> 01:07:40,639 I'll beat the hell out of you. 1402 01:07:40,723 --> 01:07:42,892 And some nights he would actually... 1403 01:07:42,975 --> 01:07:47,021 accidentally whip me and I would scream. 1404 01:07:47,104 --> 01:07:50,024 -(GRUNTS) -(WENDLA SCREAMS, PANTS) 1405 01:07:50,107 --> 01:07:52,318 LEA: I played a character who dies 1406 01:07:52,401 --> 01:07:53,819 from a sketchy abortion. 1407 01:07:53,903 --> 01:07:55,279 -WENDLA: Mama? -I'll be there with you 1408 01:07:55,362 --> 01:07:57,448 -every moment. -Mama, don't leave me. 1409 01:07:57,531 --> 01:07:59,950 Mama! Mama! 1410 01:08:00,034 --> 01:08:02,578 I came off stage one night. I had blood, 1411 01:08:02,661 --> 01:08:07,541 literal-- I had blood from something, sweat and tears. 1412 01:08:07,625 --> 01:08:08,793 And I just said to Jonathan, 1413 01:08:08,876 --> 01:08:11,879 I said, "I can't do it anymore, I can't do it anymore. 1414 01:08:11,962 --> 01:08:13,631 You know, I just, I can't do this. 1415 01:08:13,714 --> 01:08:17,009 I can't be in this world anymore." (INHALES) 1416 01:08:17,092 --> 01:08:21,180 And he said, "Okay." He was like, "Let's leave." 1417 01:08:21,263 --> 01:08:24,016 And so, we left the show together. 1418 01:08:24,099 --> 01:08:26,227 -This is years in the making. -(SNIFFLES) 1419 01:08:26,310 --> 01:08:28,854 I can't believe I'm leaving Spring Awakening. 1420 01:08:28,938 --> 01:08:31,899 Years of wanting it and wanting it and wanting it. 1421 01:08:31,982 --> 01:08:34,068 (SNIFFLES) And now I'm finally saying goodbye. 1422 01:08:34,151 --> 01:08:36,654 (SNIFFLES) Thank you... (EXHALES) ...for... 1423 01:08:37,238 --> 01:08:38,239 being my family... 1424 01:08:38,322 --> 01:08:40,407 -(LEA CHUCKLING) -...and for continuing 1425 01:08:40,491 --> 01:08:42,743 -to be my family... (LAUGHS) -(LEA LAUGHS) 1426 01:08:42,827 --> 01:08:44,912 ...after this is over. Thank you. 1427 01:08:44,995 --> 01:08:47,706 (ALL CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 1428 01:08:51,544 --> 01:08:54,046 ♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 1429 01:08:59,760 --> 01:09:00,761 Moritz... 1430 01:09:06,183 --> 01:09:07,893 My old friend. 1431 01:09:07,977 --> 01:09:09,687 JONATHAN: At the very end of the show, 1432 01:09:09,770 --> 01:09:11,522 Melchior has been kicked out of school 1433 01:09:11,605 --> 01:09:14,108 and his friend killed himself. 1434 01:09:15,192 --> 01:09:17,444 "Here rests in God, 1435 01:09:17,528 --> 01:09:19,238 Wendla Berg..." 1436 01:09:23,284 --> 01:09:25,995 No! (PANTS) 1437 01:09:26,078 --> 01:09:28,873 He finds out that Wendla's dead. 1438 01:09:28,956 --> 01:09:30,499 (SCREAMS) No! 1439 01:09:31,083 --> 01:09:34,211 No! (SOBS) 1440 01:09:34,295 --> 01:09:37,715 -♪ ("THOSE YOU'VE KNOWN" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 1441 01:09:37,798 --> 01:09:41,260 (SOBBING) 1442 01:09:41,343 --> 01:09:43,929 MORITZ: ♪ Those you've known ♪ 1443 01:09:46,098 --> 01:09:46,932 What? 1444 01:09:47,016 --> 01:09:48,976 ♪ And lost still walk Behind you ♪ 1445 01:09:49,059 --> 01:09:52,396 JONATHAN: And the initial voice of Moritz inspires him 1446 01:09:52,479 --> 01:09:55,858 to take the path that Moritz took. 1447 01:09:55,941 --> 01:09:58,193 ♪ They linger Till they find you ♪ 1448 01:09:58,277 --> 01:09:59,778 I've been a fool. 1449 01:10:01,071 --> 01:10:02,948 MORITZ: ♪ Without them ♪ 1450 01:10:03,032 --> 01:10:05,826 ♪ The world grows dark Around you ♪ 1451 01:10:06,994 --> 01:10:09,246 ♪ And nothing is the same ♪ 1452 01:10:09,330 --> 01:10:14,126 ♪ Until you know That they have found you ♪ 1453 01:10:14,210 --> 01:10:16,795 Well, you had the right idea. 1454 01:10:16,879 --> 01:10:20,215 I'll scatter a little earth and thank their God. 1455 01:10:20,299 --> 01:10:22,176 JONATHAN: But then he thinks of Wendla. 1456 01:10:22,259 --> 01:10:27,014 ♪ Those you've pained May carry that still with them ♪ 1457 01:10:27,097 --> 01:10:28,140 Wendla? 1458 01:10:28,223 --> 01:10:30,059 JONATHAN: She didn't choose to kill herself. 1459 01:10:30,142 --> 01:10:34,313 ♪ All forgiven Still your heart says ♪ 1460 01:10:34,396 --> 01:10:37,066 ♪ The shadows Bring the starlight ♪ 1461 01:10:37,149 --> 01:10:39,652 ♪ And everything You've ever been ♪ 1462 01:10:39,735 --> 01:10:43,322 ♪ Is still there In the dark night ♪ 1463 01:10:43,405 --> 01:10:47,034 -♪ You know you've left them Far behind ♪ -♪ The northern wind blows ♪ 1464 01:10:47,117 --> 01:10:50,829 JONATHAN: It is like the devil and the angel on your shoulder. 1465 01:10:52,039 --> 01:10:56,961 By the end of the song, he's decided that by living, 1466 01:10:57,044 --> 01:10:59,964 both of them will also live on. 1467 01:11:00,047 --> 01:11:04,176 -♪ We're still home ♪ -♪ There's a way through this ♪ 1468 01:11:04,259 --> 01:11:07,262 ♪ We're still home ♪ 1469 01:11:07,346 --> 01:11:10,349 I think he learns what it means to love someone, 1470 01:11:10,432 --> 01:11:12,184 what it is to be wounded... 1471 01:11:13,352 --> 01:11:14,645 and how to go forward. 1472 01:11:16,021 --> 01:11:19,233 JONATHAN: Playing Melchior was like such a gift 1473 01:11:19,316 --> 01:11:23,487 because he was everything that I, like... 1474 01:11:25,406 --> 01:11:27,032 (EXHALES) ...pull it together. It was everything 1475 01:11:27,116 --> 01:11:28,742 that I wanted to be, but I wasn't. 1476 01:11:28,826 --> 01:11:33,414 He had this, like, ability to not let the world define him 1477 01:11:33,497 --> 01:11:38,752 and... and to speak his mind and to be... 1478 01:11:42,131 --> 01:11:44,967 strong. (CHUCKLES, INHALES) 1479 01:11:45,050 --> 01:11:49,138 I still struggle with this, obviously, with this... 1480 01:11:49,680 --> 01:11:51,098 and... 1481 01:11:52,016 --> 01:11:54,351 playing him for two years, 1482 01:11:54,435 --> 01:12:00,024 like, cultivated this confident, strong, side of myself 1483 01:12:00,107 --> 01:12:01,442 that I didn't have in my real life 1484 01:12:01,525 --> 01:12:04,695 that I was learning how to have by playing Melchior. 1485 01:12:04,778 --> 01:12:07,698 (INHALES) And to come to terms with who I was. 1486 01:12:07,781 --> 01:12:10,367 And a month after I left the show, 1487 01:12:10,451 --> 01:12:13,746 I came out of the closet, and I started my life. 1488 01:12:13,829 --> 01:12:18,167 ♪ They call me Through all things ♪ 1489 01:12:18,250 --> 01:12:24,423 ♪ Night's falling But somehow on I go ♪ 1490 01:12:24,506 --> 01:12:28,761 ♪ You watch me, just watch me ♪ 1491 01:12:28,844 --> 01:12:34,058 ♪ I'm calling ♪ 1492 01:12:34,141 --> 01:12:38,645 ♪ From longing ♪ 1493 01:12:38,729 --> 01:12:44,109 ♪ Now they'll walk on my arm Through the distant night ♪ 1494 01:12:44,193 --> 01:12:47,863 ♪ And I won't let them stray From my heart ♪ 1495 01:12:49,323 --> 01:12:51,742 ♪ Through the wind Through the dark ♪ 1496 01:12:51,825 --> 01:12:54,411 ♪ Through the winter light ♪ 1497 01:12:54,495 --> 01:12:58,540 ♪ I will read all their dreams To the stars ♪ 1498 01:12:58,624 --> 01:13:02,169 ♪ I'll walk now with them ♪ 1499 01:13:02,252 --> 01:13:03,796 -♪ Not gone ♪ -♪ Not gone ♪ 1500 01:13:03,879 --> 01:13:07,883 -♪ I'll call on their names ♪ -♪ Not gone ♪ 1501 01:13:07,966 --> 01:13:12,137 Jonathan said to me, "My roommate's not my roommate, 1502 01:13:12,221 --> 01:13:16,600 he's my boyfriend." And I said, "I know." 1503 01:13:16,683 --> 01:13:20,979 And he's like, "Okay, okay." He didn't say the word "gay." 1504 01:13:21,063 --> 01:13:24,274 And I was like, "Oh, my God, this is happening." 1505 01:13:25,859 --> 01:13:27,486 JONATHAN: It wasn't a quick transition. 1506 01:13:27,569 --> 01:13:28,570 It took a long time 1507 01:13:28,654 --> 01:13:30,531 to own my identity for the first time. 1508 01:13:30,614 --> 01:13:33,450 And then it felt like... (INHALES DEEPLY) 1509 01:13:33,534 --> 01:13:36,954 "Oh, thank God I'm this way. I'm so happy to be this way. 1510 01:13:37,037 --> 01:13:39,081 I wouldn't want to be any other way." 1511 01:13:39,164 --> 01:13:41,458 Through the show and through the opportunity 1512 01:13:41,542 --> 01:13:43,127 of getting to play this character, 1513 01:13:43,210 --> 01:13:47,047 I had grown this strength 1514 01:13:47,131 --> 01:13:51,301 that I didn't have anywhere else to put but in my own life, 1515 01:13:51,385 --> 01:13:53,220 and it changed my life. 1516 01:13:54,555 --> 01:13:56,056 ♪ You watch me ♪ 1517 01:13:57,641 --> 01:13:59,059 ♪ Just watch me ♪ 1518 01:13:59,893 --> 01:14:03,105 ♪ I'm calling ♪ 1519 01:14:05,983 --> 01:14:08,318 ♪ I'm calling ♪ 1520 01:14:08,402 --> 01:14:15,409 ♪ And one day all will know ♪ 1521 01:14:18,078 --> 01:14:22,499 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 1522 01:14:24,168 --> 01:14:27,754 I can say confidently, I would not have survived, 1523 01:14:27,838 --> 01:14:32,134 not one minute, let alone a day or three years, 1524 01:14:32,217 --> 01:14:34,553 of the experience if it wasn't for all of you. 1525 01:14:34,636 --> 01:14:35,971 All of you collectively. 1526 01:14:36,054 --> 01:14:39,016 All we had was each other. That was all we focused on. 1527 01:14:39,099 --> 01:14:40,726 And we didn't care about anything else. 1528 01:14:40,809 --> 01:14:42,227 And it-- Because nothing else mattered. 1529 01:14:42,311 --> 01:14:44,396 ♪ ("THE SONG OF PURPLE SUMMER" BY DUNCAN SHEIK PLAYING) ♪ 1530 01:14:44,479 --> 01:14:47,858 ♪ A summer's day ♪ 1531 01:14:47,941 --> 01:14:52,654 ♪ A mother sings a song ♪ 1532 01:14:52,738 --> 01:14:55,199 ♪ Of purple summer ♪ 1533 01:14:55,282 --> 01:15:00,704 ♪ Of a world beyond her dreams ♪ 1534 01:15:00,787 --> 01:15:08,503 ♪ And heaven waits So close it seems ♪ 1535 01:15:08,587 --> 01:15:13,550 ♪ To show her child The wonders of a world ♪ 1536 01:15:13,634 --> 01:15:17,095 ♪ Beyond her dreams ♪ 1537 01:15:17,179 --> 01:15:23,685 ♪ The Earth will wave With corn ♪ 1538 01:15:25,687 --> 01:15:32,152 ♪ The day's so wide, so warm ♪ 1539 01:15:34,404 --> 01:15:38,158 ♪ And mares will neigh ♪ 1540 01:15:38,242 --> 01:15:41,828 ♪ With stallions That they mate ♪ 1541 01:15:41,912 --> 01:15:47,000 ♪ Foals they've born ♪ 1542 01:15:47,084 --> 01:15:54,132 ♪ And all shall know The wonder ♪ 1543 01:15:54,216 --> 01:15:59,972 ♪ Of Purple Summer ♪ 1544 01:16:00,055 --> 01:16:03,475 I'm still asked to this day... a lot... 1545 01:16:03,558 --> 01:16:05,978 (CHUCKLES) ...what is a purple summer? 1546 01:16:06,061 --> 01:16:07,354 We all joke about, like, 1547 01:16:07,437 --> 01:16:09,856 what the fuck does "purple summer" mean? 1548 01:16:09,940 --> 01:16:13,235 I don't know. It's about sex, probably, you know. 1549 01:16:13,318 --> 01:16:15,279 (CHUCKLES, INHALES) I wish I knew. 1550 01:16:15,362 --> 01:16:18,198 It might be Steven's favorite color. I don't know. 1551 01:16:18,282 --> 01:16:20,951 I think they needed a two-syllable word. 1552 01:16:21,034 --> 01:16:22,577 I have no idea. 1553 01:16:22,661 --> 01:16:26,581 Purple is a sign of resurrection? Of rebirth? 1554 01:16:26,665 --> 01:16:31,628 So many of Stephen's lyrics are very purple. (CHUCKLES) 1555 01:16:31,712 --> 01:16:36,508 The purple to me is like the color of a bruise. 1556 01:16:36,591 --> 01:16:39,511 You see, they're carrying the bruise of love 1557 01:16:39,594 --> 01:16:41,179 into the summer ahead. 1558 01:16:41,263 --> 01:16:43,849 And it's the sunset flowering 1559 01:16:43,932 --> 01:16:47,603 into a new, you know, day, a new night, a new dawn. 1560 01:16:49,021 --> 01:16:53,066 ♪ And so I wait ♪ 1561 01:16:53,150 --> 01:16:56,361 ♪ The swallow brings ♪ 1562 01:16:56,445 --> 01:17:00,324 ♪ A song of what's to follow ♪ 1563 01:17:00,407 --> 01:17:05,495 ♪ The glory of the spring ♪ 1564 01:17:05,579 --> 01:17:09,833 ♪ The fences sway ♪ 1565 01:17:09,916 --> 01:17:13,545 ♪ The porches swing ♪ 1566 01:17:13,628 --> 01:17:16,715 ♪ The clouds begin to thunder ♪ 1567 01:17:16,798 --> 01:17:21,219 ♪ Crickets wander, murmuring ♪ 1568 01:17:21,303 --> 01:17:28,352 ♪ The Earth will wave With corn ♪ 1569 01:17:30,145 --> 01:17:33,732 ♪ The day's so wide ♪ 1570 01:17:33,815 --> 01:17:38,487 ♪ So warm ♪ 1571 01:17:38,570 --> 01:17:42,282 ♪ And mares will neigh ♪ 1572 01:17:42,366 --> 01:17:45,869 ♪ With stallions That they mate ♪ 1573 01:17:45,952 --> 01:17:51,083 ♪ Foals they've born ♪ 1574 01:17:51,166 --> 01:17:54,961 ♪ And all shall know ♪ 1575 01:17:55,045 --> 01:17:58,882 ♪ The wonder ♪ 1576 01:17:59,758 --> 01:18:03,303 ♪ I will sing ♪ 1577 01:18:03,387 --> 01:18:07,516 ♪ The song of purple summer ♪ 1578 01:18:08,350 --> 01:18:15,232 ♪ All shall know the wonder ♪ 1579 01:18:16,441 --> 01:18:19,778 ♪ I will sing ♪ 1580 01:18:19,861 --> 01:18:24,533 ♪ The song of purple summer ♪ 1581 01:18:24,616 --> 01:18:28,161 ♪ And all shall know ♪ 1582 01:18:28,245 --> 01:18:35,127 ♪ The wonders Of purple summer ♪ 1583 01:18:40,173 --> 01:18:46,972 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 1584 01:19:04,448 --> 01:19:07,492 STEVEN: The show changed every aspect of my life. 1585 01:19:07,576 --> 01:19:09,286 I learned that dreams can come true. 1586 01:19:09,369 --> 01:19:15,917 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 1587 01:19:16,001 --> 01:19:17,836 Holy shit. 1588 01:19:17,919 --> 01:19:22,591 Michael came up to Jonathan and I, and he was like, 1589 01:19:22,674 --> 01:19:28,305 "This is such hard material and you guys are brilliant 1590 01:19:28,388 --> 01:19:30,515 -at executing it." -It was the best ever. 1591 01:19:30,599 --> 01:19:33,101 And we were like, "We've been waiting 15 years 1592 01:19:33,185 --> 01:19:34,519 for you to say that to us." 1593 01:19:34,603 --> 01:19:37,147 Thank you. It was just an excuse to make out again. 1594 01:19:37,230 --> 01:19:39,816 MICHAEL: This reunion was not about Spring Awakening. 1595 01:19:39,900 --> 01:19:46,281 This was an opportunity to be with those kids 1596 01:19:46,364 --> 01:19:48,992 and see who they've become. 1597 01:19:49,075 --> 01:19:51,703 -(INDISTINCT CHATTER) -Thank you for everything. 1598 01:19:51,786 --> 01:19:53,580 -MICHAEL: Oh. -JOHN: We were so young. 1599 01:19:53,663 --> 01:19:55,957 None of us really knew what was in store for us 1600 01:19:56,041 --> 01:19:58,376 on a kind of personal level, or a professional level. 1601 01:19:58,460 --> 01:20:00,086 And we kind of came back and it was like, 1602 01:20:00,170 --> 01:20:01,713 "Wow, we've all been on these wild journeys, 1603 01:20:01,796 --> 01:20:03,965 -but we're home." -Is everybody ready to go? 1604 01:20:04,049 --> 01:20:05,217 -WOMAN: Yes. -JONATHAN: We have 1605 01:20:05,300 --> 01:20:06,468 this bond that we always had. 1606 01:20:06,551 --> 01:20:10,764 It was crystallized and clarified and rediscovered. 1607 01:20:10,847 --> 01:20:14,226 And we got to meet each other as adults, 1608 01:20:14,309 --> 01:20:18,897 -and it was so profound. -(INDISTINCT CHATTER) 1609 01:20:18,980 --> 01:20:22,234 LAUREN: The things we confront in this show are not things 1610 01:20:22,317 --> 01:20:25,028 you can learn in school. And they're important. 1611 01:20:25,111 --> 01:20:27,864 They're things that help people survive, and live, 1612 01:20:27,948 --> 01:20:29,157 and know that they have worth. 1613 01:20:29,241 --> 01:20:31,368 These stories will live on forever. 1614 01:20:33,411 --> 01:20:35,705 (CROWD CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 1615 01:20:35,789 --> 01:20:41,378 ♪ (CELEBRATORY MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 1616 01:20:42,587 --> 01:20:49,302 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 1617 01:21:11,658 --> 01:21:15,495 ALL: (SINGING ACAPELLA) ♪ Yeah, you're fucked all right And all for spite ♪ 1618 01:21:15,579 --> 01:21:19,416 ♪ You can kiss Your sorry ass goodbye ♪ 1619 01:21:19,499 --> 01:21:22,335 ♪ Totally fucked Will they mess you up? ♪ 1620 01:21:22,419 --> 01:21:24,963 ♪ Well, you know They're gonna try ♪ 1621 01:21:25,046 --> 01:21:26,298 ♪ (MUSIC BEGINS) ♪ 1622 01:21:26,381 --> 01:21:29,801 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 1623 01:21:29,884 --> 01:21:33,430 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 1624 01:21:33,513 --> 01:21:36,975 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 1625 01:21:37,058 --> 01:21:40,854 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 1626 01:21:40,937 --> 01:21:44,441 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 1627 01:21:44,524 --> 01:21:47,902 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 1628 01:21:47,986 --> 01:21:51,448 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 1629 01:21:51,531 --> 01:21:55,452 ♪ Blah, blah, blah, blah ♪ 1630 01:21:55,535 --> 01:21:57,120 ♪ Totally fucked! ♪ 1631 01:21:57,203 --> 01:22:00,749 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING) 1632 01:22:02,667 --> 01:22:04,044 ♪ ("THE WORD OF YOUR BODY" PLAYING) ♪ 1633 01:22:04,127 --> 01:22:07,714 WENDLA AND MELCHIOR: ♪ Just too unreal, all this ♪ 1634 01:22:09,966 --> 01:22:16,723 WENDLA: ♪ Watching his world Slip through my fist ♪ 1635 01:22:16,806 --> 01:22:20,644 MELCHIOR: ♪ Playing with her ♪ 1636 01:22:20,727 --> 01:22:23,313 ♪ In your fantasies ♪ 1637 01:22:25,607 --> 01:22:33,323 BOTH: ♪ Haven't you heard The word, how I want you? ♪ 1638 01:22:33,406 --> 01:22:40,121 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna be wounded ♪ 1639 01:22:41,122 --> 01:22:48,713 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna be your wound ♪ 1640 01:22:48,797 --> 01:22:56,471 ♪ Oh, I'm gonna bruise you ♪ 1641 01:22:56,554 --> 01:23:03,228 ♪ Oh, you're gonna Be my bruise ♪ 1642 01:23:03,311 --> 01:23:10,110 (AUDIENCE CHEERING, APPLAUDING)